And I was like true..true..very true..

Cos yeah. There are instances in my life where in I practically made a poisonous attack with the use of my tongue.. There are these moments where I couldn't and I wouldn't use my mind.. I would just utter those silly words.. the words that are yet to be forbidden after it was said.. and yes, there are moments when you wish you just shut the fuck up and took time to breathe and talked less..
But I guess everyone did the same.. We wouldn't even learn these if we weren't as bad..
So.. Let me just share a little story.. hey I'm not sure if I'll be able to share it in an appropriate way because I'm doing a spontaneous writing.. I'm not thinking ahead.. so maybe.. this will just come up..

I was actually one of the i-dont-mind-what-you-guys-would-feel-i-am-hurt-too kind of girl.. There are moments when people just end up arguing and hurting each other much and all you wanna do is like fight back and get even with all the people who hurt you.. It's the one time big time where you would attack and you won't listen to anyone..
yeahhh.. I was once one of the kinds.. I don't think before I open my mouth.. and the next thing I know.. The freakin poisonous words are out.. I was also one of the most sensitive girls before, but then come to think of it, I would definitely give in to hurtful manners of speaking to the odd one. :| It's just ever so hard for me to keep my feelings. I am like a bomb.. I actually burst and explode with no such further notice.. It's lame I know.. but that was before..

There are times when we were very angry and all you can think of is yourself.. Getting mad and all Miss shouty is a selfish kind of act. It's one of the most selfish things you could ever do. Imagine.. thinking of yourself being bombard.. yeah yeah.. you're hurt.. you fuckin wanna scream too and you feel aggravated.. you feel agitated.. you are soo mad and you wanna fight back.. but it's just selfish of you to think of just yourself.. See? We people are selfish.. we don't think of what others might feel.. All we wanna do is get even.. you hurt my feelings, I'd hurt yours too.. that's the way we live.. but people, we can't live with it all our life.. we have to change.. We need to..

I am very sorry for all the hurtful words I ever said.. :|:|
I am at progress with this recovering..
I am one of the worsts people you'll ever encounter when I'm mad err angry..
I'm kind of impossible..
But yeah, I swear to change.. change for the better..

what the fuck is the purpose of my post?
Nothing really.. I just felt like being sorry for all the mean words I have ever said.. whatever. I'm trying to change.. :))