I have felt it. And for real, I cut myself, it's not really CUT it CUT it. It's.. I wanna loose things. It's getting a lot depressing and I can't find the air I wanna breathe. So I took hold of the cutter and cut a part of my wrist, the skin welled off blood rushing from the cut. It wasn't a big cut, though I tried it. It's soo lame, But surprisingly, It helped a lot. I got to breathe better and I felt light. I felt delighted by it and felt non stricken by the pain. It's disgusting though, but it reassured me of a better and light feeling. It wasn't my intention to kill myself, I just wanna feel satisfied and I wanna escape from the pain my heart has experienced at the moment. :|
It was the very feeling I wanna feel right then and there. DONE THAT. I was like, OKAYYY, I'm not going to do that again. You might think it's stupid and all, you might think it's lame and it's the last thing you would wanna do--hurt yourself, But believe me, You don't understand. You just don't know how it feels when you feel soo down and noone tries to understand. :| It sucks bigtime.
Yeah. LOSERRR. To those who thinks, being LIKE THAT (what I did a long time ago before) is STUPID and LAME and FREAKISH. You don't freaking know how much it hurts when noone understands. When noone seems to be listening and you are soo much wasted literally, neglected and taken for granted. And the outlet is to just hurt yourself, The point is, You have let others hurt you much, and what a relief it is when You did it to yourself thinking it's much better this way. It's been a long time ago since I last did that.
--People, You don't know every piece of shiit going on inside my circle. it's been a whole lot messy && crappy. Though things are better now. And finally, I'm not depressed and I feel the sunshine coming right up again. I am soo thankful to the people who has been there through thick && thin who TRIED to understand me, pulled me away from the deepest darkest shadows of life and helped my handle things.

GOD--Thank you. kasi you made me see stuffs I hadn't noticed. And I almost forgot that I still have you.
MOM--For being there emotionally. For always having my back. For the love && You know it.
BROTHERS--My 3 kuyas. For being such assholes but truly engaged to me. For being there when noone seems to be there. For suking up bigtime. :]]
FRIENDS--My bestfriend GERT The TEN YEARS of friendship is as great as life could offer. Greatest friendship ever in the whole world. You know why I'm thanking you. PAM && TISH my beloved confidantes.. Ones who never get tired of listening.. SWEETS BERKEIDA You all know who you are. You've been there through a lot of MY bad times and you never left my side, I often tried to be happy around you guys and yet you still know how broken am I. thanks for knowing me too well and keeping it real for me. I love you guys! for all my FRIENDS I don't need to mention cos Ive got lots of you. And I know, You know who you are, so Imma just say THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. thanks you for being there. :]
to my BABY LoVVVE Babe, Thank you for the happiness, It has just been 2months of pure love,tears && happiness with you, but I know we'll go far beyond babe. I know I love you. And I will always do. I won't say forever cos the future keeps on turning but as long as we love each other, I would definitely give all my love. thank you for understanding my moodswings my freakish ways and undeniably horrible PMS. Sorry babe. I love you. ;]

To those who HATE the shiit out of me. Thank you for making me realize, I'm worth wasting your time. You see how fool you can get? Thank you for hating me all your life. It's been forever since some started hating me. It's for a reason I don't know. Some insecure bitches just can't get enough of me. Well, whatever bitches. I am soo happy. :] Get a life. and Just live it happily. Stop hating. You'll be hated much more. :]] LOL.

This has been the very decent &7& serious post since last ages ago. :]] haha!
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