Im sick of this.

Im soo emo today. and im dying.
One of the best friends I could ever have well, is Now leaving for Canada. I know right. It's super sad. I can't imagine life without her.
well, ofcourse I can still go on. But as I think, everyones leaving for good. IDK. well, they'll be miles away and I can't imagine life without my friends.

My one and only BESTest BEST bestfriend *gert*
-She's leaving for New Zealand. But is not sure when. I hate the fact that she'll go. I can't live a life without her. Ive been used to not having her close to me physically. But knowing her somewhere here in the country makes me feel comfortable and at ease. But whenever this matters of her, leaving gives me a shot. A dose full of emocacy.. My whole heart aches. I know it sounds obsessive or something. But it's just that I can't accept the fact that she might be leaving me (for good) soon. It hurts. I know it's for her own good. For her future. For her. And I too know that I can't do anything to make her stay. It really hurts. It deepens my burdens. It's just that... I CAN"T LET HER GO. and if I have to. I WONT. Still wont. :|
It just doesn't show that Im hurting. Im bleeding inside!! and I hate it. I finally figured out what loneliness really was! and its like this.. I hate it. :(
I felt being alone. but not like this. not as much as this.
And Ive been left by the person i used to love before. But nothing hurts like hell as this. My super all time long time partner bestfriend. The one and only bestest best bestfriend I have. Will be leaving sooner or later. It hurts. It hurts that I won't be able to savor every bits of her last moments here in phils. :| It sucks. Cos Im too far dead away from her. It hurts. It really does. it will always be hurting like this no matter what the situation holds. It will be as hurtful as any gun shots or something. It's one of the hurtful moments I have to deal with. I can't tell, nobody could ever do. I can't tell what the possibilities might lead us. I don't want to be away from her. I don't want to die without her. I can't leave my life without her. She's the bestest of the bests bestfriends I have. I can't explain the feeling. I don't want to let go of her. I can't. I wont. :(


BESTOOTIFRUITY-- she's patti. She's one of the bests friends. :) And she's leaving for canada. Though I haven't spent much time with her. I can feel the sorrow. I can feel it. I can absolutely feel the emptiness. She made me happy. and she still does. I just feel sick of the fact that she's leaving. :| and yet, we haven't had special moments to cherish. :( aww..



BESSY WYS--she's leaving for canada this april I think. :( It sucks. Knowing that she's one of the bests I have.


I can't afford losing them. physically.
I don't want to.
this sucks. :(