We finally decided to unwind and uhm.. have a one-time-big-time :D
yeyyy!!

Morning was random.. i just lovvve Keeping up with the Kardashians...
read a book.
slept at around 12nn.. woke up at around 2pm :D
ate lunch..
took a bath..
off to the mall.

My brother, my sister and Ate Lot watched twilight. :)
yeah.. I knowww right..
I kind of felt bad coz I kind of dragged them there :)) haha!
I actually wanna watch Bolt too.. But then again.. Oh wellsss..

basta basta..
nakakapagod magkwento. :)

I had a fun fun fun day! :)

Hmm. Last thursday, speech comm was at it's best :) yeah.. :)
and our prof said something like this..

Ate bananas oreo and peanut butter :) that's lovvvve :)
anyway, I want a Lomo cam.. wala lang.. But not want-want. I just find it cutesyy.. :)
haha!

anyway, I am planning to shop 2 weeks from now. I bet I can squeeze shopping on my freakin loser sched. So there..
Oh oh oh! We built the christmas tree, I knowww right. Just now.. But then.. :D
I still can't feel the christmas spirit. Tsk.
I still am waiting for shibooiiii =))

Alrighteeee..
I have been dosing with lots and lots and lots of flicks! :))
Been a couch potato since I woke up..
First was The Bodyguard How I lovvvve Kevin Costner..
Second was Never been Kissed It was one hellafa`n old film.. But then, I just soo love OLD films.. And the story was just ever so greeeaat and yeah.. I got kilig again for the last 8minutes of drooling over David Aquette :))
Third movie was Nanny Diaries Oh yeah. The harvard Hottie is real HOTTTT :)) and can I just add that I lovvvve watching TV?! Especially when I'm alone? :))

Being a couch potato for a day is extravagantly ticking me off :))
oh well, there there.. I built a plan on my head that I would definitely buy the movie cd's I love and kind of watch it over and over again!!!

I realized that.. uhm.. Every film I watched today (as of the moment...) has to do with a little love thingy. :|:| It is soo fuckin funny and lame cos I could never understand my "state-of-the-heart" right nowww.. I am a bit getting sick of all the LOVE films :)) hahaha! But then, imma watch twilight with my brother tomorrow.. I hope soo..
Puhlease..

I love love love sushi :) :">:">:">
wala lang..
I am being my old sentimental self. I'm hungry. :)
I can't help but say AWWWWWWWWWWWWW :">:">:">:">:">

Yeah.
You are a fuckinnn liar. A fuckin hypocrite. A fuckinnn lame excuse maker. :|
I can't believe I'm actually friends with you. You will never be a good person. That's why all these troubles are here.. that's why you're facing every bit of traumatic experience. I am actually sad for you at first. But when I learned that you are a fuckin EXCUSE MAKERRR I kind of pity your soul and your relationship with God. How dare you! How fuckinnn dare you do this to everyone. You are such a BITCH. :| I knowww I'm being my mean unreasonable self as what everyone might think.. Go ahead. Judge all you want..
Anyway, being my empathic self, I am fooled by you. You are such a liar. You can't go because blah dee blah dee blah.. then I learned you fuckin went to some other place for fun? Why can't you be so real? :|:|:| You are not my friend anymore. :|
I HATE YOU BOTH. I FUCKINNNN SWEARRRR. :|:|:|
I HATE TO HATE YOU, BUT YOU FUCKIN MADE ME WANT TO. :|
SO THAT'S JUST IT.

EF-OWWW

Morning was crucial for me.. I have a lot of dreams.. I feel really really sick. I feel tired and all. Went downstairs for a movie catch.. I think I need to unwind.. I watched The Bodyguard which in the fuckin end, made my heart thump real bad and real suckierrr than ever. It's not a good ending for the film must I say. :)) It left a scar in my fuckin heart. :)) I love Kevin Costner reallyyy!!! :)
Thinking I need another movie, currently watching Daddy Day Camp.. Mind you, for the nth time since november fuckin started :))

This is so stupid.
I need a new bed :)) haha! I want a laptop.. I want a car and I need a new camera :)) fukkk. :)))
I am currently waiting for Benny and Joon.. I love Johnny Depp! :)))))) oh freakin gooosssh. I am soo wanting to watch that old film since forever. :)) Oh deyymmm..
The tip of my upper lip is itching.. I have a stupid red dot on the middle :| Fukkkk.
Anyway, I told myself a while ago not to get on.. School is on again tomorrow and I'm soo hating it. :| The schedule is so fuckin lame. :| I need to like get up by 4 in the morning...

I am wanting to finish every single book I bought. And that's a little too impossible by now.. :|:| I have 8 more books.. That's soo lame of me to never really started on those. Yeah yeah. I am very much focused on the twilight series :) I just love Edward Cullen :)) I knowwww right. I have heard some of the haters.. but then again, I'm not affected :)) haha! I still have the chills for it. I lovvve em lols :))

I miss eating Jap food :| Haven't even eaten sushi for like 3 weeks. That's unusual for me..
I still love my Shiboiiii :)) Oops. That's just a little crush. :)) Oh well. :))
I miss highschool. :) I have held most of my memorable moments in there.. Wishing not to bury them. :)))) =))
Imma go now. :|:|
I'm lovin` these dramas on TV :))

I miss everyone actually. :|
That's just it.
I crahed my nails last last night. It is stupid :| I knowwww. :|
Or yeah, whatever. I finished my 2 papers due on wednesday.. Isn't it great? I didn't cram!!! kewwwl.
Well, I need to check out some sites for my history class. I love history but I fuckin hate the schedule. :| I also am starting to hate my teacher. :|:|:| BS. :|

Oh wellsss.. what else could I say? :|
Hmm. Oh! My right knee still hurts and I can't stretch em good.. and uhm, I still take lots of medications.. and and.. and what else? I love SPRITE!! yey! I'm so random.

Wait.
I despise em those who aren't individually oriented with the independence that the worlds need to learn. :|
People sometimes need to stand with their own feet. It's the YOU. like get it? :|
I need not speak western something something here.. but then again.. I find stupid issues. Nobody wants to be left alone.. but sometimes, you need to be alone to learn! and to understand! :| things are different now.. I look at it differently. :|

Need I say more? Oh did I ever mention that I haven't recognized what WEEKEND really means? :|:| HAHA! Talk about restlessness :|:|:|:|:|
Hmm.. Another very cliche post of mine. :| whatever.

Uhm.. I need a good break. :) Really. After all these works? Man, somebody needs to give me a reward :)) lols. :))

I have a line up of my activities for the week.. and it's again, pretty tight. :| Ugh. I need rest.. :|:|:| I promise I won't be hard on myself after these.. after our show.. hayyy.. :|:|:|

Yeah. :| I knowwww right. Obviously, things are not as what I expected them to be. And I'm starting to feel like living a random carefree life. :| Wait. Yeah I know.. If I was to live my overly boring life, I might be whacking everyone else and being as stupid in decision making as I am, you can't truly enjoy living it. Unless you're ME :) Yeah. Little girl called "ME apparently is a very very optimistic creature. Like I'm enjoying living my no-party kind of life :D and yes, I admit that living this kind of boring life is pretty amazing. Except that sometimes, it gets old and sometimes, trying to take control of living a normal life gets out of hand and it really becomes very sickening. :| Putting the thought of a happy go lucky girl never came into issue as for myself. :) I have a lot of issues.. and I don't really handle them good.. Good enough to be better eh? :)) Oh well. Trying to face matters and being brave has been very old for me. :| But then again, I tried to change.. Change the things a little.. A little of a not-so-much plain old self. :) A change that I never thought would be this hard. :|
Apparently, I have changed a lot.. and whatever happened to taking risks?? is soo not on my check list anymore. :| Perhaps I got tired of all the risk taking.. I never even succeeded.. Maybe halfway.. but never all the way there to the top. I can honestly say that I am already fed up with all the risk taking and it seems to me that it's soo hard taking responsibility.. No good things can be brought with all the hardships.. But yes, It took me like *ZAP*.. and POOOOF!! Risks irritate me like a feather duster.. :| It's like a crazy thing. I can't be crazy.. No. Not forever. Not this time. So now, I don't really take risks.. Rock and Roll is all that matters before? Oh well. being a little different will make it better than this awkward feeling.
i sound like a coward here. Forgive me on this. I can't fail anymore. Oh. That's wrong.. cause as long as I live, I will fail.. but not the kind of like failing because you took so many risks and never learned them :| i don't wanna be all stupid. :| Wondering how things are and trying to like work them out???! it's stupid now. :|
whatever. :|

Ayoko ng ganito :|
Gaya ng sinabi ng bestfriend ko, hindi sya Coke, hindi siya rubberband at lalong hindi siya mop. Ang hirap lang icompare ang sarili sa isang bagay.. bagay na kung titignan mo, ang hirap lang kasi pag nahihirapan ka na tapos hindi mo na alam yung gagawin mo. Yung hindi mo na alam kung pano mo ihahandle yung things. Minsan may control ka.. eh pano na pag kahit anong gawin mo, kahit ano pa sabihin mo, yan na yan.. Hindi na magbabago. Mahihirapan ka lang lalo pag nilabanan mo..
Magiging isang coke ka nalang.. Coke na nasa bote.. Coke na pag inalog mo at binuksan mo, sasabog. Lalabas yung spirit.. Kaya minsan, hindi mo nalang bubuksan pag inalog mo.. Pano pag hindi mo naman sinasadya at di mo naman ginusto na mashake sya? At aware ka sa mangyayari na pagnaalog sya, at pag binuksan mo, sasabog.. Kaya ayaw mo nalang buksan.. Kasi sino ba maglilinis pag sumabog yun? Ikaw rin naman diba?? Diba?
Tama talaga si Gert.. Sobrang nagaagree ako sa coke stuff na yan.. Nakakarelate ako ng sobra. Yung tipong gusto mo maging okay nalang lahat.. pero hindi madali eh..ang pangit ng feeling ng nashake na coke bottle na alam mong sasabog.. kaya ayaw mo nalang buksan. :| ang sarap lang pasabugin minsan eh!! nakakagigil...

Punta naman tayo sa pagiging rubberband. (sorry naman. Sobrang inspired ako sa bestfriend ko! :)))
well, minsan.. hindi ganung kadali ang mga nangyayare.. Hindi ganung ka-okay.. Gets? Parang rubberband lang.. May mga times na sobrang hinahatak ka.. Yung tipong sobrang pinipilit ka mareach ang isang bagay... yung sobrang tinatry mo namang mareach.. by the force of other people. Kasi ang rubberband, hindi naman nya maeextend ang sarili nya kung walang humihila diba? So like a rubberband, super tinatry mo yung best mo na makaya ang lahat ng tension na nilalagay sayo.. Lahat ng stress.. :| Pero ang rubberband, pag sobrang hinila mo yan.. may tendency na maputol yan. Cause like a rubber band, I'm not that strong.. Not as strong as what you think. :| Pag sobra sobra na yung pressure, mapuputol yan.. :(

Ang mop naman.. Ito yung pinaka sad na bagay eh. :( kung titignan mo ang mop, mop as itself, diba mukang napaka sad nya? Mukang ang lungkot ng buhay ng isang mop..
Parang tao lang din yan eh.. Para kang isang mop na dinadala at kinakaladkad sa lugar na ayaw mo namang puntahan.. at lilinisin mo ang bagay na ayw mo namang linisin.. gagawin mo ang bagay na ayaw mo namang gawin.. Gagawin mo kasi wala kang choice. Mop ka lang at wala kang control sa buhay mo. :( ang lungkot lang maging mop diba? :( Sapilitan ang pag gawa ng isang bagay.. Hindi ka masaya.. Hindi mo gusto ginagawa mo.. hindi okay ang ginagawa mo.. nakakalungkot :( nakakalungkot isiping may gusto kang gawin, pero hindi mo magawa.. At sobrang limited pa ng gawain ng mop. :| Tipong hindi mo pwedeng linisin yung lamesa gamit ang mop. Tipong hanggang sahig ka nalang.. Hanggang dun ka nalang.. hanggang dun nalang yung gagawin mo.. at hindi ka titigilan ng master mo hanggat hindi ka nasisira.. hanggat kaya mong linisin ang lahat ng sahig sa buong mundo, hanggat mop ka, hindi ka nya titigilan.. :( Sa ayaw mo at sa gusto mo, ifoforce ka nyang gawin ang isang bagay na ayaw mo namang gawin. :|

Minsan para ka rin isang picture na nakatago sa wallet. Nakalagay ka sa likod ng isang picture na mas importante.. Yung tipong hindi mo alam yung purpose mo? Bakit ka pa ba nandun? Bakit kailangan mo pang mailagay dun? Hanggang dun ka nalang ba? Sa likod ng mas maganda, mas okay at mas importanteng picture? Kung hindi ka magpapalit ng wallet, hindi mo pa malalaman na may isang picture pa dun.. May isang picture pa sa likod ng mala-front page mong picture sa isang wallet. :| Bakit ka pa nakalagay dun? Bakit pa nakalagay ang isang picture sa likod ng isang mas okay na picture? Anong point? :|

Minsan may mga pangarap ka.. Pangarap na gusto mong maabot.. Pangarap na sobrang pinapangarap mo.. at pangarap ng ibang tao.. bakit ba minsan mas importante pa ang pangarap ng ibang tao? Ang hirap pag ang pinili mo ay pangarap ng ibang tao. Gusto mong maging coke na naalog at sumabog at sabihin nalang sa kanila na may sarili kang pangarap.. At yung pangarap na yun ay hindi sakanila. Pangarap mo.. Pangarap mo para sa sarili mo na gustong gusto mo namang matupad.. :| ang sad lang kasi minsan, bale wala nalang yung pangarap mo.. Kasi ginagawa ka nilang mop, rubber band at picture sa likod ng isang picture.. Yung tipong ang labo nalang ng isip mo kasi nabubuhay ka sa isang pangit na pamumuhay.. Yung tipong tagong tago yung feelings? Yung tipong kahit anong gawin mo, may mga bagay kang hindi mababago? :(

Foreals man. :| I think I have super powers but then ZAAAAP. Reality check. I'm just human. PLAIN OLD AIA. :|
I can't handle things.. :|
I am not that awesome. :| :))
HAHA!

Oh wells..
First week of second sem was HELL. :| Yeah. Really. It's HEEEEELLLL baby! HELL! :|
Our block was dissolved. :| so we were like pull outs in an alphabetical order. :| so there. :| It's like DYING. :|:|:|:|:|

weekend was GREAT. Cause I spent it with GOD :)

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Yesterday was cluster gathering of Central B2. :)
Tas masayang masayang masayaaaaa talaga! :) as in super duper sayaaaaa! :D
tas out of nowhere, I cried. :| HAHA! Parang baliw lang. :| tas Rubert gave us a ride. All eleven people sa isang 10 seater na kotse :)) HAHAHAHA!! ang saya kasi super sikip lang. :| HAHA! tas super nang mock kami ng mga tao. well, after naman nun nagmass kami. tas hinehate na namin yung pagsasalbahe namin. :)
I love our chapter :) And I will never ever get tired serving God. :) especially with these people :) I love our chapterrrrr! I swear :D

So there. Imma go off. I need rest. :|

Okay. I will not make the most cliche entry--the detailed one. I'm soo tired :|

well. I just love everything in Batangas.. Except all the family-fighting-issues-of-relatives-whatsoever.. :|:|:|
I don't wanna go back there if I'll feel all caught up right in the freakin middle. :| demmmit!!! :|:|:|
I feel sick with all the family issues we have back there in batangas. :|:|
Oh well...

hmm..
the house is still the same. Except it's almost lively than before. Oh well. Uhm. I went to the beach for the sun rise experience Ive been dying to see :)) hahaha!
and yes, It came trueeeee!!! :)
i love love love my own get away! :D

but then, it's good to be back --manila girl (:

haha!
uhm,.