So what the hell?! Of all rainy days.. :|:| Why does it freakin have to rain today. TODAY when I am scheduled to like visit DAD. Today when dad's driver is out.. Today when I need to ride a bus. :| FUDGGEEERR..
I can't think of anything. My mind's spinning.. I wanna scream real harrrd and louuuud.. and all the fudgerrring stuff inside me just wanna melt it's way out of my mouth. :|
I don't wanna get stucked here at home with nothing to do (well except for reading..)....
UGGGHHHH FUDDGGGEEERRR :|:|:| I need to go out. I need to see my dad. I need to hag out. I need to visit the beach. I need to see the sun rise. I NEED BATANGASSSS. It's yeah. My second second-home :)) haha!
I need the sand. I love the sand. I need to play with my siblings and my cousins.. I need to see the land. I need to work this out.. But there's no way I'l be going to travel by myself with the fudgerring rain pouring. NO. My brother won't allow that to happen. :|:|:|
Fudge Dad, you're mind is so brilliant, I wanna explode. I want your mind to explode also. :| LOSEERRR. LUUHHHSSSSOOOOUUURRR :))

I WANNA GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE!
I WANT MY ASS OFF TO BATANGAS, NOWWWWW!!!!
DEMMITTTT!!!

Yes. It's really hard regaining familiarity.. It's like I'm stuck inside a dream.. inside a body.. a body I don't really recognize. :| I'ma fag. LOSERRR. :)) haha! uhm. wait. I was thinking last night, maybe I'm a different person. :| :)) This is really weird. :|:|:|
Too much of reading all the depressing articles of the world. :|
Not to mention how depressing NEW MOON is. :| I can't believe it. :|:|:|
whatever.

Dad hasn't called me yet. There is no fuckin way I'm commuting. I won't go. I won't go riding the bus by myself. If only someone would really accompany me, then that's fine. Mom doesn't know about this last minute Batangas escapade of mine. Dad really spoils me a lot.. (well Mom does too. Much better. But then.. Dad manages to stop the boredom. He rarely boreds me. :)) HAHA! :) Hmm.. So there. I won't tell mom.. and if she finds out, I will be soo grounded forever. Oh wells.. dad is pretty much not thinking. :| =))
Basta. I won't go by myself?! I'm not that crazy. MANILA to BATANGAS by myself? OH NO NO. That's not happening. NO NO NO NO... :| :))
whatever.

Or maybe... it'll be fun?! I'm the adventurous type. :))
wtf.

Well that is if the weather will be fine (:
So maybe... I need to talk to Mr. Sun.. Maybe he could shine a little.. even just for today (: hmm.. well if I'd be visiting dad, there's so much things I need to FIX first, before going. First is.. I need to like really fix my things before school starts again. I need to maybe at least sleep on my bed. :| It's so stupid. Ive been sleeping at the low mattress for 3weeks now :)) hahaha! Second, I need to get my jeans all fixed up. Stupid things happened. :| Third, I need to have peace of mind :)) LOLS..

I was thinking, I'll be in batangas for 4 fuckin short days, so maybe, I'll drive with dad on the freeway on the first day.. then play with my other siblings and cousins on the second day.. on the third day I'll wake up real early. Like I mean real real real early to watch the sun rise at the beach baby. BEACHHHH! :) Imma visit the resident beach near our place and then on the afternoon, we'll have a cook out, family style! :) Yeaaahhh! Fourth day will be the last day, so maybe.. we'll have a real good dinner. Family style again and off I get my ass back here in manila. :) That's pretty tight. But that's what I really want to do :) Yey!!
Good thing I have real cool books to keep me company. :D
I just hope it won't rain on my third day, so that I could hang out at the beach :D

Batangas baby! Here I come!! :))))))

Yeah. I wanna examine myself.
I'm uncertain with what I'm feeling, with what I NEED to feel, and what I WANT to feel.. Plus, My desires.. everything. (: I want to know myself more than I ever knew. I know it's stupid to be like this. To not know your very self.. The deal here is, yes I know myself.. But there are just things that boggle me and I can't understand most of what's happening to me. :| Call me pathetic errr stupid, I don't give a hit with that. Crap...

Well, what I feel NOW as in NOW.. I'm feeling light. I feel like my normal self. The usual ME. But I know deep inside.. at the back of my head, there's this "something" that I need to figure out before things turns into a disaster. I feel my usual self. Not pressured. Not feeling THAT better, just fine (: if that's good, then maybe I'm feeling good (:
I still don't know what I need and what I want to feel. :| This sucks a lot. Not knowing what the problem is.. that's why I can't figure out what solution I need. :|:|
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Ugh.. I just wanna run... Run... Run with the the cool breeze brushing my hair, kissing my cheeks.. smelling the grass.. appreciating every bit of nature.. Listening to the crickets.. waiting for a rainbow.. or maybe, if there'll be rain.. I'll just soak myself.. Jump playfully.. let the rain drizzle on me.. feel the cool water.. closing my eyes.. free myself from all the troubles.. I wanna forget the world.. :) temporarily.. :))

Arrrrghhh,. Nothing beats the rain and the warm sunshine kissing my face!

Yeah. I'm glad I'm being treated like a young lady. And I'm putting emphasis on the young in the lady right there.. ((: Yeah.
Anyway, this incident woke me up.. well there's this party my YFC friends are up to.. and it's a 24hour party (well if we wont sleep or whatever).. There.. then it's like around 11pm, I'm still waiting for Tam and Tish.. kuya was like telling me to leave. :))
wala lang.. Parang unsual.. Pinapaalis nya ko?! :)) 11 pm. PM dude. GABI. :)) hahaha!
wala lang.. ang coooooooooool lang. :))

haha! :))
Nagulat lang talaga ko dahil ang bilis naman ng pagikot ng mundo mo. :))
Like I can't still understand why all these are happening.. It's so damn pathetic. :))
Mmmkay.. Let's not overrate things.. This is just another pathetic NORMAL kind of situation that maybe...everyone's dealing with.. How can I not get used to it? :)) whatever whatever whatever.. I'm still gaining familiarity with the matter.. I know it already happened many times before.. It's just that.. whenever it happens AGAIN, it's a whole new thing. It's not like any other or so.. it maybe the same but it feels different. Whatever. :|:| I can't explain how the hell it feels and how the hell I look at it.. I am actually trying to handle it..
Basta. narealize ko lang.. mas maraming taong deserving sa ORAS ko. :)) Hindi lang ikaw :)

Yeah. That's a christian song we usually sing for worship. (:
Oh well...
I just wanna thank my YFC family for always making everybody else happy and comfortable..

TISH and TAM for the company.. For like allowing yourselves everytime we work this out (:
KUYA NELMAN if it weren't for you, I will not be active or will I ever join YFC? hmm. Thanks also for always sheding some light, giving me brilliant ideas and making me understand things.. For also being our mentor (:
ATE KARLA if it weren't for you, we won't probably join the chapter.. Thanks for always being supportive and being very friendly and lovely and for the prayers! (:
MITCH for being one of the best sisters ever.. The brilliant mind of yours and the confidence you share with us is ecstatic!
MICO for being a good brother.. For being shit shatty and talkative.. for understanding everything.. for being a sweet sweet boy!
JOSH for being a good chapter head! You are the coolest ever! Thank you for being one of the coolest persons ever to talk to.. For understanding every bit of my strange personality.. Thank you for being friendly (:
FELIX for all the "good morning, good afternoon and good evening" sms you keep sending (: Thank you for uhm.. designing cool shirts for the chapter.. for being friendly and funny.. Oh how I like the favorite pose of yours (:
MICA for being a cool sister (: for being one of the power rangers.. ((:
TRICIA for being funny and cool.. Glad you found your phone (: hihi.
PAU grabe lang. Thanks for making me LAUGHHHHHH forever. Thank you for being a cuddly sister and the best huggable friend (: yey! Thanks!
INA for being one of the new sisters.. for being fun to be with (:
JC for being "bread".. haha! For being a cool drummer.. for being a brother and a friend! for also being weird ((:
RUBERT for sharing your blessings haha! For the free pizza (: For also being discreetly funny :)) hehe.
KUYA MIKE, KUYA DREW, KUYA PIPZ, MIKEY, KUYA ALEX, GULZ thank you for the little bonding moments.. (: looking forward to UBE (: haha!

If this something would even ring a bell. ((: Idk. :|
I really don't know what came to me since I'm so not inspired to write lately.. because of all the random things that has been happening LATELY. And I'm not quite sure what to really feel about THINGS. But there are things that needs to be really appreciated.. and also.. needs to be look at much more to it's deepest soul.. whatever. :| I'm being non sense here. :|:|

well, what really happened to my day was nothing but real anxiety and full of hopes.. My heart is filled with hope which means God gives me non stop grace.. Even if I feel really sick about things, he gives me much more of his grace so that I could feel the love.. The love of God that I merely am forgetting.. well this should be an entry for my Meet Joe Black movie experience but Ive decided to write about it later..
now..

I'm being my odd self. (:
well... continuing to the non stop grace that God gives me... (:
hmm.. Well I feel a little low lately.. But then, God gives me so much grace.. I didn't realize earlier but then God indeed works in mysterious ways.. in ways I haven't noticed. :| Well whatever. Our God is a good God. (: He listens to us. basta.. ang baet baet lang talaga nya..

Well para magets nyo na talaga yung sinasabi ko.. ganito kasi..
uhm.. Lately super gulo talaga ng utak ko.. as in wala ako sa sarili ko.. yung tipong under pressure lang talaga ko.. tas sobrang ayoko na magisip.. hindi ko alam kung ano nagyayare sakin kasi deep inside, wala naman talaga kong problema :(( kaya ang iniisip ko ngayon, bakit ako nagkakaganito.. bakit parang mali na lahat ng nararamdaman ko.. Pilit ko na pinapagana yung utak ko para malabanan yung nafifeel ko.. pero hindi ko lang talaga magawa.. so sobrang hindi ako inspired.. Pero since napaka baet lang ng Diyos natin.... nanood ako ng TV kanina.. and I ended up realizing and appreciating everything despite of all the struggles I'm into.. :) Sobrang saya lang kasi pinaparamdam ni God na kahit anung mangyare, kahit feeling ko down ako ng walang dahilan, nandyan sya para ipakita at iparamdam sakin na lahat ay magiging okay.. lahat talaga..

Okay..
OCTOBER 25
--woke up 3am call time is 4:30am.. Met up with friends sa may Plaza then sinundo kami ng other friends and then konting gathering and dun na kami sa van (: i love the morning sky (: super coooool. (: breakfast ng konti sa van.. with chapter friends (: yey.. saya saya..
masaya yung pagdating namin dun super bored lang muna kami.. kasi hindi pa masyadong nagsastart yung activities.. tas medyo nagayos kami ng stuff and nagsettle muna then chikahan with Tish, Tam, Pau, Tricia, Mitch, Mica and Ina (: yey!! that's the sisterhood of the travelling pantootss :)) hahaha! then bumili kami ng metrocon shirt (: yey!!
--worship then super saya ng welcome something.. then naglunch with the whole chapter. Super dami namin. (: ang fun lang talaga..
--super nanloloko lang yung weather kasi nagiging sunny then after five minutes uulan ng intense. ay grabe lang..
--dinner was good. although super sakit ng legs namin..
masaya yung praise and worship. Ang dami lang talaga tinuro ni God. Super masayaaaaa! kahit naiyak iyak pa kami.. ay grabe lang.. tapos ayun.. nung 1am na, nawawala phone ni Tricia tas pinaannounce namin.. ayun..

OCTOBER 26
--morning was super GULO :)) hahaha! hindi pa rin nababalik phone ni Tricia, tas super wala pa kaming energy.. so there.. Oh well. Breakfast with chapter then worship and sessions. super saya. ay no wait! Nagmass pa pala.. masaya din yung mass. kahit medyo inantok kami dahil super ang gulo lang ng weather..
super dami lang naming pictures.. ang vain kasi ng chapter namin. hahaha!

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umalis kami sa venue mga before lunch.. tas naglunch kami somewhere in cavite I think. Super fun kasi sobrang dami dami dami namain sa chowking.. thanks to Rubert sa free pizza (: tas yun.. matagal kami dun sa stop over na yun.. we left mga 4pm na.. hahahaha! Super nagbonding pa kami and kwentuhan..
tas yun.. nagkahiwalay na yung troopers sa vanners.. hehe.
mga 6 nagstop over kami sa may caltex makati then diretcho na.. Hindi na traffic.. so isa isa na kami hinatid..

UN day for buzz (:
met up with a few of my alumni friends..
ate a loooot.

UH-HUH!! (:

Struggle sa enrollment. (:
well actually, hindi kami nagstruggle dahil sa mahabang pila or whatsoever.. Organized na organized kasi sa Miriam.. Para kaming highschool.. Oh wells.. hmm. Natagalan ako sa pag-reg.. Epal naman kasi yung nagenlist ng subjects ko!!! BADTRIP lang talaga. Mageenlist ka tapos puro conflict. ABA!! Goodluck talaga. So medyo 1 and a half hours lang naman ako nagayos ng conflict dahil halos lahat ng tao, may conflict ang sched. ARRRGH!! Goodluck talaga. So kasama ko si Kuya. Yeah yeah whatever. baby pa daw kasi ako!! OKAYYY. :|:| :)) haha!
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Mga 9:30, nandun na ko sa Lanai. I waited for Carol. (: Tas yun. Nag-reg kami.. sabay sana kami kaso nga lang, may conflict pa ko sa sched. Eh sya wala.. so yun na. Kasama ko sina Ajay, Alex, Marga, Frances, Xiawee.. Hanggang sa kami nalang ni Marga yung naiwan dun. Oh well. after ko maayos yung conflict sa sched.. Bumaba na kami ni kuya sa cashier.. Pumila and after 10minutes, okay na. Enrolled na ko. Oh well. hanep talaga yung enlisting!! BADTRRRRRRIP!! badtrip lang talaga! :( lahat ng class ko 7:30. FUCK. :|:| 730 eh noooohhh?!!!?!?!?!
magfunction kaya utak ko?! ARRGH!!
badtrrrrip. :|:| Nakakainiss!! sa 9am class nga nalelate pa ko. 7:30 pa kaaaayyyaaaa!!!? nooo.
anyway, pagtapos namin magenroll ni kuya, umalis na kami sa MC..
balak sana namin mag lunch sa Mcdo katip pero sabi ko punta muna kami sa NBS..
dahil gusto ko na makumpleto yung books ko! haha! Eh pagdating namin dun, breaking dawn lang yung meron. :| PFTTT.
sabi ko, mag mall nalang kami. Nagmall kami ni Kuya.. tapos bumili ako ng New moon. Sorry pero hardbound lang yung meron, kaya no choice ako. :|:| GRR. ang mahal. pero okay lang! (: hahahahaha!
yey!! ang saya lang..
tapos tumingin kami ng mga cellphones at bumili ng maraming maraming cd. (: hahah!
tas yun. Gutooooom na kami. Ayaw na namin maglunch dun! :(
haha!
bumili nalang ako ng Zagu tapos umuwi na kami! (:

Woke up real early for NOTHING. :|
i know right?

Finished Twilight (: hey what?! What's wrong with being a loser like me?
hahaha!

Dunkin with Dianne. then off to Mylene's, Meica's and Jonah's.. Met up with Chel. Went sa bahay ni Chel. (: Talked to Louisa from abroad! YEY!! (: ate a loooottttt!!
fun fun day (:

and now... as I sat here.. I am also watching THE BORROWERS. Cool and funny movie! (: and I think I was 7 years old when I first watched this film (: it's pretty awesome! I remember the days.. hahahaha! ang funny lang talaga nung film (: YOU JUST GOTTA WATCH IT. IT'S SOO FUNNY! ((: ANG COOOOOOLLLL TALAGA! (:

I WILL DIE SOON AND BURN MYSELF IN HELL. IN HELL I MUST GO DUDE. IN HEEEELLLLLLLLLL. :|:|:|

So this day is creepy enough for me to miss everything from the past tv shows. and I really do miss watching Nickelodeon. (:
and oh have I mentioned I am totally inlove with the movie Georgia Rule? (: yeah. Not about loving Lohan, but errm.. the movie is cool (:
Since I'm not being my old self.. but one thing hasn't change. well not entirely one thing. i realized as soon as I have typed it. :)) *laughs* ((:
first, my FAITH hasn't change. No. Not yet. Not forever. Not ever will it change I guess. (:
second, I'm still LAZY ((; I need to improve haha!
third, I'm still a bookworm (:
fourth, my eyes are still 200-200 and I still have crooked teeth (:

oh well. everything else is different.. invisibly different..

and I also still love maraschino cherries (: nothing more.. (:

I'm not being my usual self lately.. or this happened for the last 3 weeks of living hell on earth. Boy I'm such a loser for like being LIKE LIKE LIKE THIS. :|
tremendously not over everything. and yes, overrating. :|
well, for a fact that I too don't know, I colored my nails deep and dark blue.. and that's the most impossible thing I ever did. Yes. Could it be any harder or casually, you could just say that this piece of written stuff I am doing and eventually will be in the past form definitely looks crappy, sounds shitty and idiotic. :|
You can blame me all you want. But whoever cares, why visit my site anyway? Get yourself a clue, will you.

well, lame me. sorry for being an odd creature lately.. plus, I was also thinking what's got into me. Why my relaxation habits no longer help, why is everything turned upside down. I can't even cope up with the matter. Since I am being a very silly and odd creature plus an ass. more than ever. I have been hunting for DVD specials of The adventures of Pete and Pete. It was once my favorite show.. Nickelodeon has been my lover during the blissful years of second grade. Mind you, I'm soo in love with it (: not to mention Clarissa explains it all. I am deeply in love with em series (: arrgh. Now, could someone help me find DVD's (:
This is unbearable now ((:

Not to mention, saved by the bell; my so called life and student body. I'm being an idiot-box maniac. Heavily (:
hahaha!
Could it be worst? ((:
I also miss sweet valley twins and two of a kind (:
Oh childhood memories are lovvvve (:

I can't get enough of this. I wanna go somewhere else. Please (:

Whatever.

Yeah. I'm so dead. :|:|:|
I won't win it.
I could never win this battle. :|
I CAN'T.
I can't be the BAD guy now..
Not anymore..
I'm not that strong. ):
I can't do this any longer..
THIS SHALL STOP. ):

All I know is that I'm old enough, mature enough to at least TRY to handle the pressure.. Everything's been like a labyrinth for me lately.. a roller coaster ride.. it's all up in my head now and I might pop this instant. ):
Seriously, I know what's right from wrong.. But it's still ME. ME ME ME who will decide on whatever. Cos I'm old enough to take responsibility for myself. I might fail.. I know there's a BIG possibility that I might fail.. I might not succeed on whatever battle it is. :|:|:|
Gosh I'm nearly 18.. You can trust me.. I know what MIGHT happen and I'm open with possibilities.. I'm trying to stuff my head with all the knowledge I need on this.. Gain strength in accordance of proving everyone what I need to prove (:

I know I can be lame at times ((;
but you see, everything will be okay. (:
it might not be a GOOD ending, or if it will end.. ((:
but then again.. I just wanna tell you guys, I AM OKAY, I WILL BE FINE (:

I have issues.. Nique and I have issues.. :|:|
well whatever. I don't wanna talk about this online.. but I need to like get this out of my chest this instant..
well, just for everyone who's very concern, Thank you so much! (: I appreciate everything okay. I really do.. But it's just that I want to prove everyone wrong.. I also want to prove myself wrong. (: well then if I fail, it's okay. (: Nobody's perfect.. (:
all the million what if's have been said.. everyone is really concerned and all.. but I just wanna remind you guys, that if I get hurt, then it's all good (: at least, I tried diba? (:
Thanks for all the concern (: I appreciate it and I know for a fact that you all have good motives (:

Imma go off now..
Imma read more of Twilight. (:
I won't go for an all nighter tonight.. Nique would be crazy.. He'll call me first thing in the morning again... :|:|:|

Well I just hope it wont ever end and if that's the case, well then, forever is back again (:
I am a very realistic person NOW. Just NOW but then maybe, just maybe.. Nique would stay.. haha! There's a little hope that maybe, Nique would stay and this wont end up badly.. Shall I say this wont end (: HAHAHA!
but Edward is soo lovely (: and I'm bringing him to life (: Yeah yeah whatever. Nique is my very own Edward.. slashing off the silver car Edward has ((: hahaha!
Oh well.. I don't wanna talk about this anymore (:
cos I'm soo inlove with Edward Cullen... and yes, I did mention that Nique happens to be my Edward Cullen ((:
hahaha!
Forgive me for being like this.. I knowwww. I'm a fan girl AGAIN ((:

Ah yeah.. (:
Now I thought everybody deserves a second chance. (:
a second chance is more than ENOUGH.. (:
I thought about my last post me--being a little poetic.. Studied the post and forgive me, I'm correcting it NOW. (: haha!

Yes ofcourse, everybody deserves a second chance! (:
I can give a chance or two or three.. I'm a very soft-hearted young lady ((; hahaha!
but zapping back to reality.. you may smack me right on my head but that's just how things may and will go.. Things can be different.
If someone gives you a second chance please make sure that you do it right (: Maybe there'll be rough roads to travel but don't you go blow that second chance (:
Not everyone has his/her chances I must say that.. and if you are too be given a chance, you might wanna grab it as well. Life is unfair. (: You have to live with that.. everybody has to live with that.. (:

You may be forgiven, but the chances are quite limited. (:

WTF am I writing about?? chances chances chances (:
If you don't wanna regret anything, don't blow it (:

errrmmm..lolsss ((:

Woke up just in time to eat breakfast and continue reading twilight.
I had cake for breakfast and read a little twilight until Nique called..
Talking to Nique is good (: It lightens everything up.. well, partly he's my little Edward Cullen (:
while talking to him, I dosed a little of disney channel since I missed it already, lucky me, Meet the robinson is on (:
I totally love the movie!! (:

my day just revolved with a whole lot of Edward and Bella (:
I don't want to get too excited and rush my reading since I haven't bought New moon. (:
For some strange reasons, I have Eclipse and Breaking dawn ((: Hahaha!!

(:

Well, ((: hahahahha!!
Just when everyone got over with Twilight, I'm now goin bonkers! ((: now only I must say. (:
I don't like the thought of everyone talking about similar things. (: well as for me ((:
hahaha!

I want it my way. (: and it's a good thing I don't allow people to get in MY way (:

I can't believe I'm being a twilight Fan girl ((:
after a year, it's NOW ONLY that I figured and admitted to myself that I'm lovin Bella && Edward.
But still, I can't imagine myself watching the movie. ((: AHHHHH!!! ((:

Last week, or last last?? Nique was a bit too forcing to let me read the books I had bought. :| I am partly insane to buy books and not read it. I told him I'll read em books if I have time.. I want to read Twilight only if it'll be JUST my focus. But since Nique and I didn't talk early this morning, I tried to keep myself busy and end up reading my books! starting with TWILIGHT! (:
yes. I knowwww. I'm such a loser ((: HAHAHA!
or whatever. (:
I like it when I'm the only one being left behind.. weird weird me! (:
I still haven't bought New moon.. though I already have the 3 books! (:

lolssss (:

I swear today is one of the best days I have ever had (:
foreals now baby! (:

well, if I would just make this post detailed, then it will take me forever to finish it.. I'm gonna try my best to make it brief. (:

My schedule for today is nothing but crap in the morning. I was too soon to wake up and it's stupid knowing that Nique won't even call today. I hadn't bum around after all so I decided to be the lazy ass I was as always.. Morning was just too crappy to handle. And if I haven't heard Nique's voice, I'll be suffering from temper shortage. :| well, I started my day with an internet kick off. Since my brother has his work things planned, the computer is left to be all mine very easily! That is quite one of the bests ever (:

Since I got bored with the whole internet thing almost updating my recent online stuffs, it was getting old now and I planned to just suit myself on watching the idiot box.. well not really concentrating with the whole wtching thing, I was thinking of what to do today.. what I have planned exactly, and the fighting of my sleepy head is another struggling battle that may interfere all the things I had planned. Well, I was bored and I remembered that it was Pia's family day (my bestfriend's sister). So I took a bath and off I went to my former alma mater, St.Paul. It didn't take long to be there or it was just early? well, it took me to release all my negative vibes and appreciate the HOT weather I was experiencing..
I got to watch Pia dance and after her dance there's this cool photobooth that would take your picture and be printed in 10seconds (: That's soo cool! and I was secretly planning to have it on my birthday! (: YEY!!

after getting bored and after all the starvation, Gert's family took long to decide on where to eat lunch, since it's already past twelve.. We ate at Seafood Island along cubao and boy 'twas awesome! I didn't eat breakfast because of the frustration and lack of inspiration.. ((:
We ordered the Dapitan's boodle.. It contained breaded shrimps, crabs, oysters, weird rice, sisig and liempo. I swear I didn't eat a lot. Remember I have rectangular wires now and it seems to be hard on me.. I'm still adjusting. Oh stupid braces issue. :|:|
Ice cream for dessert was just way awesome!!

Gert, Pia and I decided to watch "Sisterhood of the travelling pants 2", so their family dropped us off to Rob. Unluckily, the movie line up was just not fair enough to show sisterhood.... and we were frustrated. Since Pia is only ten, we are not allowed to watch some other films except if it was rated as GP. So we headed for Sta.Lu. :|:| and also no sisterhood there..
took a ride to SM Marikina, and no sisterhood. :( we were forced to watch IGOR and it turned out to be a great film (:

After the movies, we were expected to be home by 6 or so.. went to a bookstore to complete my Twilight saga set of books! (: unluckily, there's no New moon ):
took a jeep to get to Gert's place. It took us 1 fuckin whole hour just to be in Marikina. :|:|

Had dinner (: and yes it was awesome! (:

I had a pretty looooong day! (:
I loved my saturday! (:

As easy as that!
People, we can't be martyrs forever. :| (:
mmkaay?
You stay if you're happy.. and yes, leave if you're not. It's not selfishness or something. It's something you have to ponder. You have to make your own reflection to it.. and it's not as bad as what you may think it is.. alright now..

Oh wells.. :|:|
haha! uhm. My mouth aches so bad ):
yeah. I already mentioned that I shifted from circular wires to rectangular. ):
rectangular wires are thicker and painful :|:| HAHA!
mmmkayy.

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I think Imma sleep early today.
reasons


Can I just post everything? I mean... I always post stupid entries. So my blog sucks a lot. ((:
sorry for being a lame blogger fellahs.. I'm an odd girl ((:
tag if you want (:
deleted my comment box. :|:|:|
maybe I'll put it up soon. (: no one even comments, or atleast every month lang. :| :))
ahhaah!

TAG TAGGITY TAG TAG TAG. (i miss southpark. F words are bombs!!) lolsss

Nique says I'm praning. No I'm not. PLES. :))
haha!
Well wala lang..
what's funny and I think sweet of Niq is when he tries to tell me what to
freakin do. :| :))
HAHAHA!!
and end up doing what I really want to do. :|
sorrrrry.
I'm a very impossible person. and I told you all before. :))
well, Imma try to be different. (:
maybe in time I'd be a good girl at that. (:
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back to the praning issue. ((:
hindi lang kasi talaga ko praning..
kala lang nya yun! ((:

it's the nth time imma mention Nique on my posts.. but who cares? :)) lolss.
oh wells...
((:

uhm. wait.
Since I still haven't accomplished the detailed and full blast story of me&&Niqs, here it is. Imma do my thang now. ((: hehe..

Oh wells.. Nique is currently studying at UP Diliman. I knowwww. wtf. ((: hahah! He hates his school. IDK why.. errm. (i love UP haha)
His second name is NICOLE. I call him Nique(nikki) err Niqs. Whatever mood I'm into. ((:
he calls every morning. He has no freakin cellphone NABASAG KASI. HELLOO NAMAN DIBA. PARA MABASAG MO CELLPHONE MO.. good job nique! :|..
oh well..
wala nanaman akong maisip na ikuwento. ((:
bukambibig ko na si Nique.
nique nique nique.. ((: ((=
lolsssslolsssslolssss ((:

Nique, thanks for being with the
most impossible girl ever. (:

Tomorrow is a saturday.. Nique won't call. Not quite sure why but then atleast I'll have a good sleep. (: I won't be conscious of the time being.. (: yey!
Lols. But imma miss Nique tomorrow. He'll call the day after tomorrow. (:
all good.

Tomorrow is.. gon'be a busy day for me.. well, Imma start reading the book I want atleast I could read it by tomorrow.. hang out at some place with a friend or just whatever. (:
as loong as I'm not staying here.. talking to the computer monitor. This is getting old from time to time..
well my Batangas escapade would be moved from 31-3 I think. I still am not sure.. I still want to celebrate Dad's birthday.But sadly I can't. Not this week. NOT UNTIL I FIND SPONSORS FOR THE NOVEMBER PRODUCTION. :( this sponsor search is sickening. :( arrghhh. :((

I need to get going cos I need to meet up with my good friend Carol.
We need to see the RAW grades in Fil. :( ((: hahaha!

Imma miss Nique :( aww.

Okay. Let's just stop reminiscing.. I'm happy now.. you're happy.. everyone's well. (:
but I just can't stop myself.. haha! there's nothing really wrong about it.. but it's just that I feel.. uhm.. how do I elaborate? ((: (man, this is hard).
Uhm.. for a month long of mysterious "something that we had".. it's quite hard to forget everything. :| But then it needs to end this way and I'm more than glad to accept what really happened to the "us" part.. well, it's safe to talk about it cos finally, I have already moved on.. and now, free from the lock of confusion that suffocates me before.. Now, I'm all good and there's no grudge after all.. honestly, I miss you, but it ends right there.. I just miss the times we had. You were once the best(;

OKAY OKAY.. just to make it clear.. I was being my bored old self, I have decided to browse friendster.. and visited few sites at that.. I saw "J".. He's a year younger than me but believe me, he acts really really matured! (: haha! Okay. Saw his pictures and there, I found myself reminiscing.. being a little low.. cos I remember the times we spent. Oh well. (:
haha! So there.. People really do change.. He changed.. not sure if it's for the better or just for a change. ((:

oh well.. Nique would be sick if he gets to read this ((: hahaha!

This gotta be the first and official and (yes, detailed) post
for my HOME BOY. (:

I fuckin know what to do.. what's right to do.. what's best to do.. I just don't know how to do it. You effing don't know how hard it is to resist doing something wrong and you awfully know it. It's easy for you to just JUDGE without even knowing what's up with me. What the hell is happening.. what shit I'm dipped into.. what the fuck is happening... YOU GUYS HAVE NO CLUE. :| Yes. You do have a hint. but for me to smack your face with this.. YOU DON'T HAVE THE SLIGHTEST CLUE HOW IT FEELS. :| Don't you go kidding me that this is another EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN of mine. Everyone's going through a lot of pain lately.. and yes, WE ALL FEEL CRAP LATELY. :| I know. WE ALL DO. :| But if that's the case, WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE ALWAYS ME? ME EQUALS THE JOKE TIME OF EVERYONE. What the fuck? Do I look bad? Bad enough for you to spill fuckin comments that just hurt a lot?? that just freakin goes through my fuckin veins which I try so hard to shrug off but then the moment I lie down on my bed at night, that WORDS OF YOURS came rushing in again and it feels like it won't ever go away? DON'T YOU GO MAKE ME THE BIG JOKE. I AM NOT BORN TO BE JUST A FUCKIN JOKE. And I must state this very clearly and don't you guys ever get me wrong.. Sometimes it feels OKAY. But then more often than not, it feels CRAP. :| Why do I always have to be the one being laughed at? DO I LOOK REALLY THAT BAD??? DO I ACT REALLY THAT BAD?? I'm not giving out the "am-i-just-sensitive" option cos you just might CHOOSE it. :| Please. It hurts me. It fuckin hurts to be A BIG JOKE FOR YOU GUYS. :| I don't even make fun of you. Do you get it?? I don't have a grudge or something.. I just feel like this should all come out NOW. Not later, not tomorrow not in the near future.. but NOW. Now is the moment. :|
Guys, I try so hard to support you.. to be very cheerful when you feel down. but don't look down on me as if I'm a fuckin doormat okay?

HINDI NA NAKAKATUWA MINSAN.. BASTUSAN NA KASI EH.. NASASAKTAN DIN AKO.. KONTING RESPETO NAMAN MINSAN. KASI KAHIT KAILAN DI KO NAMAN KAYO BINASTOS DIBA?.. Pareparehas lang tayo.. wala namang hitting below the belt.. Nakikipagbiruan naman ako eh.. lumugar lang.. tsaka wag naman yung ginagawa nyo kong parang ang tanga tanga ko lang? diba.. Ginagawa nyo kong hayop o kung anu man maisip nyo tas pagtatawanan nyo ko.. seryoso.. nakakasakit eh. :(

HELLO?! TARANTADO NAMAN KASI SYA EHH!!
like gets? NAKAKAGALIT KAYA TALAGA?!

Hey. If I was OUR prfo, I wouldn't even fail a student. :| Not unless you really really really deserve to fuckin fail. Like you don't even enter my class or if you'll attend my class, all you do is sleep? something like that. :| NOBODY IN OUR CLASS EVEN DESERVES A FREAKIN "F" OKAYY. That dreadful F is soo fucked up. :|

like gets?? diba.. kung pumapasok ka sa class, ginagawa mo sinasabi ng prof mo, kahit mababa ka man sa quizzes, you might even deserve an UNO at that, but you can't be poofed with an F. :| That's lame. What raw excuses can the prof give you?? :|
Even that UNO which can be more or less NOT REALLY FAIR FOR US cos we really did GREAT in freakin .

I WANNA GET MAD MAD MAD MAD. :|
I'M SICK OF THIS UNFAIR ISSUES.
WE KEEP ON BATTLING WITH THESE. WE TRY TO DEFEAT IT.
WHY DO THE UNJUST WINS? :(

I, for the love of heavens had OKAY grades
this semester. But I still feel for my blockmates.
It's unfair. It's so unjust. :|:|:|

BUTI SANA KUNG NAPAKA GALING MONG PROF AT NATUTURO MO LAHAT NG MAAYOS. GOODLUCK NAMAN SAYO NOH?! KAYA KA MALAS SA BUHAY EH!! KASI GANYAN KAAAA!!
KAPALLLL MOOOO..!!!
NO ONE IN OUR BLOCK DESERVES THE GRADE YOU GAVE US. FUCKEERRRRR!!

:|
SORRY. NADALA LANG AKO.
:))
NAKAKAAAAAASSSSAAARRRRR KASI NG MALUPIT EH!

distribution of fuckin grades! :)
Good thang I have "OKAY grades".. Not low but not that high. :| :))
Come to think of it, I'm satisfied with what I got. :) hihi..
I did my part.. I didn't really "LAXED" myself much but I admit that I didn't give the 100% that I should give. Oh well. That's life. :)

I'll be trying to give my 100% best. :) I'll do whatever I can do just to like balance my theater stuffs and this acads. :)

So far my 16 was OKAY. :)
NOT AWESOME, NOT BAD. JUST FINE. JUST O-K-A-Y. :)

anyway,
I have this thing that popped out just now..
every once in a while, people really do change. and as for me.. I HAVE CHANGED AND NO CAN DO, I WON'T WAIT FOR YOU. :))

i love my Nique boy. :))

Nique boy and I talked for only 25minutes. :| on the 16th. :|:| THIS IS FUCKIN STUPID.
And now, I'm waiting for another call.. That may be coming soon.. :)) HAHA!
I'm feeling fuckin strange about today. :|:|
Nothing's really special except the day itself and I feel really crappy about it. :(
I feel sick. :|:| :))
PLUS class cards today. OMFFFFFG :|:|:|:|:|
I'M SOO DYING. :))
Saturday, I'll be meeting with my bestfriend again. :)
and I just hope everything will be fuckin OKAY. :|:|

Life for me was never fuckin easy. :)) HAHA!
and yes, but could I just say that I SHOULD HAVE EXCEPTIONS? IT'S FUCKIN 16 TODAY. CAN I JUST BE HAPPY? EVEN JUST FOR TODAY?? JUST FOR TODAY DAMN IT! :|

my mind's gonna blow now. :(
very very possible. :)) HAHA.

NO MORE BAGUIO DAY FOR ME. Cos hell that's a stupid short notice plan of ours. :))
BATANGAS DAY IS YET TO COME! am I excited or what? :|:| I don't feel like it. But then it's my Dad's birthday.. so be it. Imma go as planned! :) mmkay! :D

CAVITE DAY is gon'be super funnnn!!!
with my chapter again! :) YEY!! it's a YFC thang.. :) so there. :) SAYAAAAA!!!

CARDONA RIZAL AT THE END OF OCTOBER-- i doubt lang kung makasama pa ko. :(

This sembreak is kiddaaang me. :( :))
I DON'T EVEN HAVE A SEMBREAK FUCKKK. :|

Thought of writing about them. :) Though I'm positive, they won't get to read this. :) Lolss.
The three of them, knows to tickle my soul. :) They always manage to make me happy and feel loved despite everything. Despite all the family issues we have. :| :) I was thinking though if I did a little same same thing on blogging this...? :)) I believe I have written about them many times before. :)
Now...In a different perspective.

I have already changed. And that change is partly better than odd. :)
As for my changing, it's not only ME who changed. My brothers did so too. So we all had adjustments in our part.. and that's absolutely OKAY for me.

--they would tackle my phone and scold me if they see some picture message from a guy that says some cute message right there. :| HAHA!
--They would call me whenever without much respect on the time, date and the place I am in. They don't care. What matters is that they could reach me or something like that. It ticks me off. :| HELLO brothers, I'm in a FORMAL conference... :)) (There's this one time when the three of em tried calling me because I won't answer my phone. For the love of the heavens!! I'm at a leadership seminar and currently having a conference! and they are pissed and called my teacher..) :|:| That's super elementary but believe me it happened only 2 years ago I may say.
--I am allowed to go out with friends and no chaperon as long as I give out details every fuckin HOUR and if I missed it I AM SOOO DEAD. :|
--My siblings has the temper shortage. :|
...blahhh...

But now, they're different. They are actually treating me like a young lady and I just want to emphasize the YOUNG on the lady right there. :) HAHA!!
I still give details every waking hour when I'm out.. and it's okay. :)
They wont bug me when I don't answer my phone.
They don't tackle my phone nowadays. :)
and I almost have my very own pet called PRIVACY. :) HAHA!
though they don't really understand what's my PRIVACY for. :| :)) Oh well.. I just want my privacy cos I avoid being asked a lot. :| :)
lolsss

I LOVE MY KUYAs

My kuya Theo and I are planning on visiting a salon and have our haircut. :) It's sweet! :> hahaha!! Have you even bonded with your brothers? :)

I DO. A LOT OF TIMES. :>:>:>

Anyway, I am HAPPY. Period.
Surrounded by people I reciprocate feelings with..
Family, friends. (he is included in the "friends" part).

:)) Why is he included in the friends' part? Because there's a friend in boyfriend. :D (Thanks Roji for that line)
and he's even one of the bests friends.. :) okay.. Stop na. :))

-- LAST NIGHT...
I was actually talking to myself and My brother is eavesdropping. :))
Though I'm aware, I don't mind him looking at me and listening. WTF. :)) Well I was beside him anyway..
I said.. I need a laptop NOW, I need nike, I need a new phone, I need a new bag... and he was like Need? or want? and I said Ofcourse NEED.. But at the back of my mind, do I really need it? Or I just want it? The borderline of my wants and needs are getting thinner and thinner as time passes by.. But I guess I can still distinguish the wants&&needs. :|
Forgive my soul for being like this. :| :))

--SUPERMAN ISSUES..
Don't I ever grow old of using "issues" as whatever? :))
Oh yeah. Well, I'm bored last night and couldn't sleep. I was out for something.. And I want to dream when I deeply slumber. I was getting ready. Shut my eyes. Opened. I can't sleep. :| So I grabbed my phone, turned the music a little low but good enough to lull me. Pushed the button on random and yes.. I closed my eyes. Five for fighting's "Superman" played. Okay. I may be a little oldschool at that...but please. It's my phone. Don't just. HECK. :)) HAHA. So there. Still, my eyes were close.. But then, the lyrics started pouring and I looked at the song differently. :| It's as if it made a huge BANG on me and there. I absorbed everything. :) THE SONG IS AWESOME! I'll write a review about the song some other time.. But it hit me. I love the meaning. :)

superWOMAN? :)

I don't really know how to deal with this. :|
I'm not good at fixing schedules.. time.. dates.. whatever. NAME IT. :| :))
I'm soo not good at it. :|
I could die just fixing schedules. :|:|

**though these were just "tentative" schedules.. some might be really fixed. :| and as for some are really fixed. :|:|:|

October 16 -- Class cards. :|:| :-S
October 18 -- Gertrude and Althea day. :|
October 17, 18, 19 -- Baguio! (still not sure) though this is the "planned" datessss.
October 19-23 -- Batangas! Dad's birthday bash. :) Ooh I'm soo invited. lols. (family issues) :))
October 24 -- Enrollment. :|:| :))
October 25-26 -- Caivite!; YFC Metrocon. :) ^^Fixed na toh. Super sure!

Plus I have rehearsals; Teatro; Prod meetings; Family stuff

ARRRGH. :|:|
I hate this. I hate fixing all these! :(

Helpme. :| :))

Well.. let's not talk about my stupid issues mmmkay. :)
--

Highschool barkada is planning to visit the awesomest place so far in the philippines. (well sa point of view ko ples) BAGUIO MEN. BAGUIO. :)) YEYYY!
Surely, Kuya would allow me. :) YEY! :) sana lang matuloy ples. :) yessss!!! I'm excited. :) This sembreak will gon'be great. Except that Louisa wont be able to come. SHE'S IN MONTREAL FOR PETE'S SAKE. :|:|
--

CASH CASH CASH. I NEED COOOOLD CASH. :|
-baguio for the weekend; batangas for the week after; cavite for yfc.
-WTH. :)) I'M ON A TOUR BEYBEH! B-)

---

This sembreak will gon'be GEWWWWD :)) lolsssss. :|:|:)))))

Oh I just hope it would. :):):)


Okay.. Sorry for another very indecent post. After all, I write for myself. :)) HAHA!
see how selfish? :)) lols

Oh wells.. :|:| haha! it's what I look forward to anyway. :) So that's just fine.
No more one liner talks here. plus were extending to a 3o+minutes talk. :) And that's wayyy coool! :) I love it.
I love starting my day like that. :)

We are now entering a next level. :) yey. LEVEL UP NA! :)) jewwk. :| :))
--

Have I told myself that the more I try to love Him the more I sink the sword right through my heart deeper as ever? :|
--
It's a rainy morning. It's just sweet to have a wake up call from someone very special to you.
To finally talk after the 24 hours you last talked to each other. The feeling is at it's best and I'm happy with it. Just happy. :)

I got to talk to my babyG slash bitch BEA. :) I love her to death and I miss her so damn much!
Bea and Faye has been my barkada since grade1. :) although Faye has been my barkada during kinder2 :) FUNNEH. :)) and now it just amazes me how are friendship came this far and will be forever. :) i love us. :) haha!

Got to comment comment to my bessy who is currently living in Montreal. :| I miss her. We always comment each other everyday. :) But I miss her much!

--
This morning is just great :)
although I feel like hurting. :| Hurting for nothing in particular. But then.... let's keep it a secret for now.

Well at the back of my mind, I really wanna sleep. But I need to like help myself. I can't sleep now. NOT NOW. Not when it's almost 6pm.. :))
So tomorrow.. I need to wake up EARLY. It's an everyday routine I must say. :)) haha! 630 He'll call so I need to get up. :|:| OKAY.
Plans for tomorrow are still PLANS. without any confirmation or something. :|

I went to school for it's locker day today and I have to surrender my keys. BYEBYE Locker 611. :| saw Shawi and we talked. :) haha! And ofcourse, I look like an elementary creature. I have this freakin huge bag and another hand bag. :)) Oh well, locker stuff just got to go now. :)) HAHAHA.
before heading home, passed by Mini stop, bought chips and drinks. Ate. and home atlast! :)

It's my brother's job interview and examinations early this day, and boy he's fuckin nervous. :)) HAHAHA!
asked him to buy me Donuts. HE DIDN'T. :|:|:|

Now I'm hungry. :|:|

I'm really really really bored.
I miss everyone.
I misssssss youuuu! :)

Mood changed when He called. :) Thanks to my Mr. Fabuloso. :))

---

Emo moment when I looked back at some photos during highschool and all the letters my friends gave me. All the retreat letters.. Pictures.. Aww. :( We all look so young and innocent then. :)) Seriously, I feel like crying. :| Those were JUST gonna be "the days".. We can look back but we can't go back. :| It's sad though. But it sure does make me smile. :)

Slept at around 1am. :|
And got up just now, 6am. :| Fuckin horrible I may say. I still am not wanting to like wake up soon. :| But since He would call, I should be awake by now. :|
This is where the pissing off begins. I'm concluding that the call would just last for about 20 minutes or less or so. :|

K. I'm soo not in the mood to write. Cos My effing sister is so stupid I could just smack her head right now. :| I'm in a very ill mood and I'm sort of losing my temper NOW.

Her service came while she's brushing her teeth, and so on. Let her be cos Kuya would just fix her blah blah.. and then I could just see that there's no sense of urgency or rush in the girl's action. I'M FUCKIN IRRITATED. :| The guy out there is waiting for my stupid sister. :| I told her to fuckin hurry up (nakakahiya na kasi!!) then she told me she's fixing her freakin bag. WHY NOT DID THAT LAST NIGHT?
:|:|:| --NOW I'M PISSED.

Whatever. Temper shortage on my part. :|:|
This morning is a not so good morning. :|:|:|:|:|:|
Hope my day would be OKAY. :|

Plans for "Sembreak"...

Slept at around 430. Got bored with the net so slept. Woke up at around 8pm and ate dinner. and replied to people's sms.

I was awaken by the noise barrage coming from downstairs. It sounds like there's a lot of people partying. Was afraid to go down cos maybe, I look a little drag. :)) only to figure out that Kuya, Ate and my little sister are soundtripping.. whatever. :|:|
ang ingay ingayyyyyy!! :))

So there.

I'm planning to watch a lot of flicks this october and boy I'm so excited. :)
I wont watch "twilight" unless I finish reading the book, which for the love of heavens, I hadn't even laid eyes on. :| I knowwwwww.
:))

Well, guys, I just link personal sites. not any advertisement sites or something. :) So is that clear? :)
Thank you :-*

HAHAHA!
So tawang tawa ko?
Labooo. :|:|

Wala lang. I just thought of the title and it's oh so very helpful and if people would do the same everytime they're bound to get angry, then no one would have the lamest conflict. :|
over and over again. :))

So there. I feel sick today. I'm missing someone.
WOAH WAIT.
Am I being my old warm self?
Naaahh. :|:|

Wala lang.. One thing lang people, especially FRIENDS.
I hope you get to read this, cos this is the main point. :)) YOU ARE THE MAIN CHARACTERS here. :)) lols.

FRIENDS FRIENDS FRIENDS..
------ If you're cold, I'm cold. I'm not bound to be forever SWEET to everyone. Especially you. You know how much I do care but... But..... I won't be like that forever. If you act like you don't care, then I'd be caring less. Who says I'll never change? :))
I'll be what I want to be no matter what happens.
and if you can't live with it. then let it be. :)) HAHA!!

On the verge of confusion and it's not funny anymore.
We hung out last night and we talked about OUR issues. :|
It's a faggot issue. Dramatic but kind to self though.
So here's the big LA BAHM :))

I am not really into LOVE itself. Been wrong oh so many times so as much as possible, friendship is the least I can give for now. But then again. HE MANAGES TO MAKE ME FUCKIN THINK ABOUT IT OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. :| :))

so here it goes..

Me: Let's drop everything now. I'm the worst person ever. You wont stand me. I'm freakin COLD.
Him: I don't care of what you think you are.
Me: Why?
Him: Why not?
Me: Okay. Then let's just be friends..
Him: More than it would be even better.
Me: Well why me?
Him: Why not you?
Me: I'm gay. I'm an ass. I complicate things. You wont stand me. I SWEARR.
Him: well then let's try.
Me: NO. :))
Him: I can stand you. I love you.
Me: TSS.
---and the rest is history..---

So there.
For YOU
------------Thanks for everything. You're such an adorable freak and that's why i love you. :)) hahaha!! GAGO. :)) Jeeewk. So there. I may be an ass, but then again.. :) Thanks for making me smile. Thanks sa jacket. Swapping jackets are sweet. :) Especially when we sprayed our perfumes on our jackets then gave it off. :) love it. :))))))) pota. Jologs eh! Oh well. Thank you Mr.UP Diliman black belter guy! :)) You're awesome.
Walang bolahan ah! lolsss.
So there. Thank you thank you for all the breakfasts, lunch, merienda slash dinner, movies, mentos, fruitas and everything. :))
One big hug! :)

Oh no. I'm not buying this moment. :| NOT gonna happen.
I have been very unusual lately. The way I talk to people. Feels a little cold on my self. I'm impossible. :| I could hear myself sounding like I never would care or whatever you say will just pass by my ears *ding ding* and I wont even absorb it and you'll end up like you're talking to some fag wind. :|
I'm soo FAG. :))

Oh well. What's wrong with me. I always am being negative lately like there's no sun that'd shine na. :|

I don't know. I don't understand myself. :|
Could this be harder? :))

Wait. I find things complicated to live with by now, but then thinking again.. am I just complicating it?? Or is it really complicated to live with? arrrgh.
This feeling just wont end. :| and It's not even funny anymore.

dang girl. I have a lot of issues. :|:| :))

Let's not write about my fag old self. :|:| It'll worsen every bit of grinding happiness. :| FUCK. so ironic. :|

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Yesterday was the end of HELL WEEK (finals week) and so our block partied.
basta basta.
It was fun!!

spent the rest of the night with someone. ;) :))
how can it be stable when things have gone complicated and tremendously out of the way were goin. :|
can't handle the pressure. :|

EVERYTHING'S GOOD. EXCEPT THAT THE PROBLEM IS ME.
me me me. :|
I'm the one.
I'm the effing problem of my problem. :|

I'm sickening. :))

Yesterday morning, I was half tormented and half blissful because I realized that there are 3 parties. But then again, have to study for finals week. Yeah. I knowwww right. That's a bummer. And if you're actually thinking I'm a party girl, well, no I'm not. :) It's a family style party thing. :) YIPPEEE!

6pm-- Aaliyah's birthday party at Mcdonald's Pasig branch! :) It's my niece's 7th birthday. I was soo thrilled. :)) hahaha! Because I love kiddie parties. :) Foreals. It's actually not boring and My brothers and I enjoyed the party a lot. :) We goofed a lot and all.. hehe.. I enjoyed the food, lootbags, mcdo goodies, the name tags, party hats. EVERYTHING! :))

8pm-- Our relatives had this old school style closed-street party. :)) It was effing cool. :)) hahahaha! and yes, I got so hyped when I saw my cousins.. :)) Hahahaha!! They live really from afar haha! :))

---the other party? Yes, My brother's after party. I'm not actually needed there.. So I just went home. Haha! With my cousins. :) yey! They slept here at my house. My room's really crowded. LOLSSSS. No one wants to sleep on the beds so we decided to put the extra matresses sa floor.. Then yes, we stayed up all night looooong!!

Kim, Camille, Unisz and my sister Attah, we bonded till we drop. :)) haha! There's a lot of kwentos, camwhoring and everything.. Scarrrry moments and all. Hahaha! super fun night.
We dropped everything 3am and woke up 540am because Kim && Camille needs to go home na. They're from Laguna. :) hihi..

We wanted to go with them sana, but it's too early and were all sleepy.
Talk about sleeping inside the car and vomitting moments of Unisz.. :)) So we decided to stay nalang. :) FUN TALAGA!

Now, I need to study. I promised myself last week not to use the web. :|
But Not successful though. :|:|