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Hello! :) I'm Althea. Studying at Miriam College.
You can call me Thea, Thei, Aila, Lai, Aia, Yayay, Permy, Spermy, sushigirl or Blue :) YOUTH FOR CHRIST: Central B2; Highschool based :)
loves three03 :) loves Green :)
I'm a beach bum, mentos addict, not techie, frustrated photographer, mickey mouse addict
I love surfing (but I'm not good at it :() Poetic, loves writing, musically inclined,
bassist, dancer, actress, singer :))
Addicted to the sky, colors, stuff, wrappers, souvenirs and many more!
I'm friendly and tough :) I love you! :)
-- I love MICKEY MOUSE BLUE is my favorite color
I'm addicted to GREENDAY I LOVE PUNKROCK
Actually 18 but I act like 10 I LOVE MY MOM I am soo weird you probably can't kepp up with me.
pushpops sourtapes mentos cola flavored gummi gummi stuff flavored strips jelly jell-o gumballs brach's cinnamon candy. OLD movies
Yay. :| Whatever. I can't think of a stupid title.
Wala ako sa mood magkwento ng maayos. So kung ano man matype ko dito, yun na yun. Well, besides..,it's like 2:51am and I'm still half awake. My eyes hurt but I still don't wanna sleep. I feel like I wanna do more stuffs. But REST is what I really wanna do. :| Okay. Ang labo ko lang ng malupit dyan. Kwento ko nalang yung MAY 29, 2008 EVENT. Okay., parang narealize ko na masyadong... well, hindi sya private thing but I wanna keep those between me && family. So yun. Sorry. I wanted to blog about it soo badly but the urge is too down low and I can't. I mean I CAN'T. :)) Haha! :| -- Now I guess is the perfect time for me to watch the 4th season of The OC. but my understanding level just turns out to be flactuating and I can't think much. My eyes are blurred (exaggerated) haha! =)) Ayun.
There. A while ago, at my cousin's house... wait. Aj is from Laguna and Eunice is from Cavite. We live far from each other. So I guess that's why we hung out pretty much longer than ever. Talk about non sense stuffs and ate popcorn. Watched some gag shows and played sungka. Jm couldn't find his sigays so we used a lot of coins. Small ones. And it was effing cool. :)) We thought of a challenge a more serious game of sungka where in the player who wins would take all the coins. :) But then, we used like 10 centavos. It won't be pretty much of a needed coin, so we just let Jm (my eleven year old cousin) re-own the coins. Is that gambling or something? :| :))))) Lolz. Sorry. I'm just BRAIN DEAD KBYE! 8|
MY HAIRRRR. ♥♥♥ <333
Date / Time : / 5:36 PM
Yay! That's how I look. :)) Haha! Sorry. Haha! I was bored again. Remember the First cut? Now my bangs! :)) Nyahaha! :))
Today was such a tiring day, I just hope this will end na! :(
There's this sagala event, Please. I don't want to be the Reyna Elena. So there. My cousin will be one of the sagalas. :) So I'll just go with them, magilaw daw kami. Whatever. :)) haha! Gaaah. I did nothing but bonded with my dearest cousins. Blaaaah. kbye. :)
Too lazy, to edit.
Date / Time : / 7:39 AM
I want to edit, but I'm so lazzzzy!
I just don't wanna edit my codes now. Idk. I'm so lazy. :|
LOVE DOCTOR. :))
Date / Time : Thursday, May 29, 2008 / 8:02 PM
If ever you need someone to talk about LOVE, ALTHEA is the name of your resident love doctor. :)
Gaaaah. :)))))
No matter how hard it has to be. No matter how hurtful it is. You would definitely MOVE ON. You would definitely be happy again. It just takes time. You don't need to rush things. It's okay to cry if you feel like crying. It's okay to burst your tears out if you feel like you need to. It's a matter of acceptance and security. You have to learn from your mistakes. But as you go on, You would face the SAME heartache. But not exactly as what you've faced before. God gives you different challenges. :) It's part of loving. Don't tell me it's cliche. (yeah. it is anyway) Though you have to accept it. You have to face the consequences. If it's meant to be, it will always be meant to be. If not, no one knows though, but You need to live your life. You shall not waste your time. Life is short for you to cry all day. :) (haha. ang gago koooooooo! :))))))))))))))))) Basta, if you feel you're hurting so much. Just let it all out. Kuya Jes(Jesus Christ) is always ready to listen girl. Cheer up! :)
First Love Never Dies. BLAST FROM THE PAST
Date / Time : / 7:37 PM
First love never dies? KILL IT! :|
Yeah. That's what Ive been thinking for almost a YEAR now. :| I was blinded by all the lies. I mean, I never thought we could ever do this. Separate ourselves and live new lives. I mean, we've been ONE for almost 3years. Man, I was suffocated by all the hurt and lies and all the promises left broken. :| I just can't believe that I have already moved on. But you see, I think of the happy times (without hurting, that's different. :] I'm happy now), like before I sleep at night, I wonder what's been happening now if were still together. But that's just fine. Like separated from each other. It's been a year already since we said goodbye to each other. I'm happy for myself, I'm happy for him. No more bitterness.
How that happened?
Simple. One morning, I woke up. I wasn't hurting bad. I was freed from the hurting and crying and punishing myself. It's a november then. I was devastated the week before our 6th month "over-ness". There was a scouting club camping, I am the senior patrol leader for all girl scouts. And He was..for the boys. :| I was really sad. I felt hard with breathing. Can't smile. He's also I think a bit sad, though he's happy. :| I was angry. Mad. I can't accept the hell Ive been dealing with for the past months. I felt betrayed, why is he happy? Don't I deserve to be happy? I was all skinny and I can't smile. I can't flash a "happy" smile. :| I was living a different life. Then just before going home after the event (it's a 2 day event). A junior senior Boy scout approached me. (we actually know each other. But never ever said hellos for years) He said I'm pretty, He asked for my number. He wrote a letter. (He is very cute and awesome btw) ;] When I got home, I was soo tired I fell asleep with my dirty clothes on. 6pm, my brother woke me up and told me a GUY is looking for me and has asked permission if we could go out that NIGHT. I was soooo shocked. :)) He filled the space. patched things up. We were happy. :) -- anyway, I am narrating such loooooooooooong story here Yo. :)) Whatever.
I'm soo lazy na to type pa! :|
I am very much happy now for myself and ofcourse for him. But I still think of the times we used to spend together. I mean yeah. Sometimes, I still miss him. :| NOT. :)) I just can't forget the ALMOST-THREE-YEARS love. :| It has been a very wonderful memory. I had been happy and so was he. :) That just makes me a whole now. Realizing I have left my past gleefully! Without looking back and going after it. :) I am now happy. But I can't just erase the happysad;bittersweet memories we had. It's been a long time ago now.
THE SKANKKKK!
Date / Time : / 12:18 PM
That's the skank. Thanks BESS for the image. i love it. soo genius! :]
The SKANK is going down NOW.
Date / Time : / 7:39 AM
That skank is going down. Turned out that I Already lost my temper.
I don't know how to get screenshots. :| I can't let you see what she's been doing for the past 2 months. I mean, she's not really consistent. But she's really really onto hating me and the people I love. Ofcourse, My friends. It's okay to hate me and dizz me all you want, But NO ONE TOUCHES MY FRIENDS No one! Not even a single shit of that skank could ever touch my girls. My friends. NO. Ive been writing stuffs about her, how she tries to hate me, to piss me off, to bash on my comment box on friendster. She's soo damn JOLOGS. She can't spell words right, not that it's typo. She's like using numbers and different letters for words. like "an0h kha vah?! kafal ng mukah m0h!" eww... that's what Ive been trying to say. Fuckk. That bitch is getting on my last nerves, I suppose I lost my temper and now, there's no last nerves. I'm gonna hunt this fagot. DIE! I want her to pay for this. Like I don't really give a shit on how she do things upon hating me and my friends. But the deal is, she can't always get away with this things. NOT NOW. Not now that I'm totally pissed off. Man I mean, she's been bugging me all her life. (not. 2 months I mean on that). :]] Whatever. And now I'm wasting an entry for her? I'm stupid. :]] But I wanna get this things cleared out on my mind. My chest is pounding so hard that I type soo fast. So forgive me if you'd see typos here. :| Fuckk that kid. Her momma needs to punish her. Or I'll punish her myself. Fuckk. That skank is soo down now. If I ever get to meet her in person, I'd just simply look at her with disgust. And no. I'm not touching her with my bare hands. I can't eww much. whatever. I'm out!
Oh Hello!
Date / Time : / 7:22 AM
Hi! ha ha ha. :]]
Anyway, whatever. I painted my nails and I loved it. :]] Pastels are looovvve. My new addiction. Ive been preying for The Face Shop nail paints. Fuckk. I bought 2 of em, a green one and a blue one. Man it's a bit expensive for a nail polish but it's worth it. You'd actually love the colors.. The quality is good also. :]] What am I talking about. Errrm. I'm not vain anyways. :| Teehee. :]] anyway, I wish to jam my story here the other day but I think I'll make a defferent post for it. Read on. :]
Nothing really to blog about..
Date / Time : Wednesday, May 28, 2008 / 7:38 AM
Nothing. Until something pops out.
I am bored. (For the nth time, it is.) I am freakin bored almost everyday of the 24hours of my living in hell. Pretty much hell, I mean. I can't believe I have a stupid college schedule. Broken time and over break time! Whatever. What shall I do with the times I am vacant? I suppose I need a laptop. :| haha! Just to fill my vacant periods. :]] Haha! My brother has a laptop. I want too! :| Sadly, I can't get one for myself. That's why, I wanna work my ass off! Mom says she'll buy me a laptop. But when? Next year? Haha! Whatever. I am not buying to that WHAT-MOM-SAID thingy-OH! haha! Today is the 28th. on the 3rd of June I'll be having a looooooooooooooong MC orientation and I mean LONG baby! :| 8am-6pm. What does that supposed to be? Fkkk. :| I mean, what are we gonna do? Blab about things? Make new friends? We could do that in 4hours I think. :| Why would that be like 10hours or so? Fkkk. :| That's lame. Please. I don't wanna get bored or fall asleep during the LOOOOOONG orientation. Pleaaaase sweet lord. :[ Anyway, I still don't know what might happen on the 3rd but I wanna have new friends. Atleast before school starts. :|
Can't believe..
Fkkk. I can't believe I'm not in highschool. :| Whatever. Kolehiyala.. I am not ready for all these college things I should be dealing with. :| This sucks like painful hell. OMG. I knoooowww. Ive been ranting these college blabs for a month already. But you see, I can't effing burst out my thoughts with someone. This blog really does help. :| .. and with these, my feelings pour. This is the sanctuary I pour my heart into. :| okayy. I know this blog has been very dramatic && non sense &&sometimes boring. But you see, this has been my friend for what 2 years now? :]] haha! Go on. tag or comment. :]
Good Good Now Were Making Some Progress..
Date / Time : Tuesday, May 27, 2008 / 1:01 PM
Whatever happened to my sanity, IDK. :]]
i am making this post for GERT. Haha! This is a thank you post. Cos I asked her to make me a layout for my blogger. Cos yeah, I'm the magician, I helped her fix her blog just about to be up soon! yey! Anyway, yeah. I am sooo glad Cos the request has been granted. NEW LAY FOR MY BLOGGER baby! ;] that's soo cool. :]] But yeah, I adore my blog layout I got from blogskin! :] --Oh well. haha! Sorry naman kase I don't really have something better to say :|
I am just so Hooked with P!@TD. :]] yeah. I heard they'll be having a concert here in August. IDK. :\ Whatever. Sobrang Word vomit na ko. :|
Kolehiyala
Swear you shake it, You swear to listen
Date / Time : / 12:26 PM
Panic!@ the Disco
Nothing. I'm just bored. I'd so I'm updating again. What? This is like the 4th post for the day. :| Whatever. have I mentioned in this blog that I had a pretty weird haircut? :]] haha!
I can't think of an interesting thought to write about. And yeahp, Ive had enough of my stupid dramathons. :]] Oh well..
Yeahp. I'll attach a photo. :]] haha! I am soo lazy for all these boring things I have to be dealing here inside the house. So just pardon me if my post is ugly and not interesting and stupid and sometimes dramatic :\ Whatever. Here's a picture before the haircut..
There.. and here's the result.. :]] Fuckk the attachment settings dude. :|
JUST SEE FOR YOURSELF. STUPID DRAGGING THING. BEAT THE INTEREST TO FULFILL THIS BLOG ENTRY. FUCCKKKED UP.
Dance The Night Away..
Date / Time : / 8:26 AM
Oh the title.. HA!HA! Idk. Like I'm romantic or something. :]]
I was actually thinking of nothing. Really. yeah? haha! I'm just soo bored I can't effing think of anything interesting to write about. Like I'm braindead again or something like that. Again, cos I'm always like that. man. :| Well, yesterday, i thought of renewing my red streaks and turn em into blue or violet or pink. But I can't find the colors. So there, stuck with my red streaks turned into brown-ish. It's on my tail anyways. It's not really obvious and not jologs perhaps you might think of it as OH-HEY-I-TRIED-A-NEW-HAIR-COLOR-BUT-WAY-TOO-SCARED-TO-COLOR-ALL -MY-LOCKS thingy-oh! haha! :]] So there, I saw a very cheap nailpaints yesterday @ pastel's botique. It's 20php for God's love. I bought two! I mean, it's really cheap. Both blue&&green pastel paints. I love em. But I'm not using them till june. :]] Haha! I painted my nails half black&red., so as you can see (just imagine till I upload the pics) it's soo emily-the-strange-ish Haha! :]] Full of laughter. Wth. :]] :| -- I wanna talk about New life. Dude, I'm starting a new life here. Since we moved houses, I had been locked with the inner depths of my freakin soul and was way too scared to go out and look for new friends. But I can't be like this forever. It's just that I'm soo scared of changes. yeah. Changes mean a lot to me, Like I was thinking last night, why changes occur in the most petrifying ways that you can't go prepare for it. I was devastated. :| Yeah? (oh geez. another serious overflow of dramatic post) I don't get it. Don't tell me Everything happens for a reason. Such cliche. :]] I know it's true. I knowwwww. I believe it's true too. But I can't understand. You have to let me understand why such things need to happen? Why in the world that it needs to teach you in the most hurtful ways ever. :| I couldn't be more emo but this just sucks. Dramathon every night just ticks me. :| Im pissed off forever for all nights. try to imagine yourself thinking for the possible ways to ever cope up with your drama fest. It is sickening. And please, don't tell me it's up to me. and I bother dealing with dramathons all night. No. You can't ever understand as looong as you think wild enough. Let yourself feel what I feel. FRIENDS MOVING MILE AWAY, FROM HERE TO THERE, TO DIFFERENT COUNTRIES. Moving houses. (not literally moving, hope you get what I mean) Being pressured. College stuffs. The firsts happened this year. And more will soon happen. I know I could never stop this changes. Cos yeah. It's constant. All you have to do is not care much what I really think. Just listen to me. Don't tell me what to say nor what to do cos it just beats the crap out of me and more so, gives me HELL. and that's deep shiit man. You just don't understand. No one would ever understand what I really feel. I don't show much but I hurt morrrrre deep down inside me. It hurtsss. It hurts a lot. I can't figure things out. I can't rely on myself much either cos i feel so dumb. i feel like I'm in hell, living the possible ways to get to heaven, but then before sleeping, random thoughts flow. And it just sucks. I know people can't be happy all the time. But This hurtful? This is so unfair. yeah. For me. But thinking abgout more suffering, thinking of more people dealing with a lot of suffocation life can bring? It helps. It helps me. It makes me feel better. Luck that I haven't been starved, Good education ahead. Nice family, good friends. It makes me feel better. :] ---JUST DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO--- im out. :(
FCUK. DON'T CALL ME. FCCCCUUUUKKKK.
Date / Time : / 7:35 AM
Someone just called me and was trying to pull a prank. I was like irritated. Yeah. The number flashed on our caller id and she has been calling me for the past 5minutes. I called her, trying to confront her but she just presse the freakin plunger. Then the stupid dude called me and told me NOT TO CALL AND I WAS LIKE IRRITATING HER AND FUCKING THE PUSS OUT OF HER. I don't freakin get it. I lost temper and I blurted rather shouted at her YOU STUPID GIRL DON'T CALL ME. WHATEVER. YOU'RE SUCH A LOSER, I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS! FUCKK" seriously. I told her that. that was the exact words. I felt bad for saying stupid badwords to her. but she just scrapes the shiit out of me. And She accused me. Fckk. I feel sick. Stupid prank callers. I hate them. Fckkk. -- Anyway,should post something here. but then, my dear Mary Lyka, gave me an award. ;] aww. thank you dearrrr. ;] I'll post the award thingy later. Aww. thank youuu. ;]
Hi People.
Date / Time : / 7:07 AM
Please. If you ever dropped by my site, I would really love it if you TAG so i could return the visit. ;] But, if you don't like. Well, it's up to you. And speaking of Link Exchanges, I woul also love it. :]] Just tag right there and ask me to do so, and Yeah. I would link you up immediately . Okay? People. Please. I can't always repeat the rules I have here. Plus, I can't write it all up there! Or I'll be making a rule board for you. :] Thanks for bearing with me. :]
Tagged by Rochelle. ;]
Date / Time : Monday, May 26, 2008 / 4:59 PM
Tagged by Rochellll. :]
Foundation: Clinique
Blush: Estee Laude
Lapstick: I don't use lipsticks. haha! Lipbalms&&glosses The body shop
Fave make up product: Lipgloss&&Mascara
Perfume: Pink Benetton.
Nails: Just some nail paints; gothic&&pastels
3 products to bring on a deserted island: Lipbalm, Moisturizer, Sunscreen
My feet: bare feet foot wash. :]
My hands: Dove cream lotion
Women I admire the most for beauty: MOM!! haha! Liv Tyler. Love herrrr lang. :]]
Women with the best sense of style: Tyra? Idk. I don't care lang. :]]] Sorrrry. :]]
My ultimate dream: To be one hellaffa successful gazillionaire babe! :]]]]]]]]
My favorite publication: Nylon Magazine && Candymag Phils.
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MIRIAMISTA!
Date / Time : / 7:51 AM
OH Hello! ;]
I slept late last night. And I am not sure if that's still a night. :]] Whatever. Word vomit. Anyway, I also woke up real early cos I need to enroll.
Today must be our LUCK DAY!!!
My brother and I quickly fixed ourselves. I still have an appointment at the medical center there and ID picture taking and my schedule and all. First, I went straight to the school clinic and Do I hafto detail em yo? haha! After that, I went to the registration area and enrolled. It wasn't that easy cos I kept on walking and walking and blabbing there. :]] Good thing My brother accompanied me and more soo, act as a gentleman just for today. Lame-oh! I don't wanna detail things cos I'm just lazy to do soo. Tired. But happy. It's just a lucky day for us. We didn't have to deal with super loooooooooooooong lines. Don't have to wait for a cab forever. And we ate at Mcdo again without having shiiity orders. :| lame. Haha! Today was a LUCKY DAYYYY! ;]
There were pretty much friendly people I talked to. Especially the Guards Nyaha! :] And some students. Most are not reallysnobbish though..... they look like total snobs. Whatever. Don't judge. :]] haha! It's pretty usual. I might look snob too, myself. :]] READ THIS ACCORDINGLY. NOTHING WRONG WITH thee GRAMMAR. :]] haha! :]
Whatever. I'm feeling light. :]] Finished enrolling whatsoever. :] Nice day. I think. It should be. Ive had enough for the past 2days of living hell. :|
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Date / Time : Sunday, May 25, 2008 / 9:57 AM
Yay! That is soo Panic at the disco
Whatever. My head aches every five minutes. My body is about to break. Whatever does that means HA! haha! Anyway, my brother is still addicted to Super Natural, and that's why I still haven't started watching the season four of The O.C. I knoooowww. I have watched some episodes before, but nothing beats dvd series marathons. Unlike on tv. Well, I just hope I could watch Gossip Girl foreverrrr. Hoping that my brother would now apply for a job (he's a fresh grad) haha! But it's non sense since I'll be off to college in a week. I am very nervous. :\ This is quite nerve wracking man! Well, I hope I'll have friends on the orientation this coming week. Wheww. :| Fuckk this feeling! Anyway, I just wanted to post. La lang. I'm bored. :|
Whatever happened, the damage has been done.
Date / Time : / 7:10 AM
My 24 turned out to be a bitter-sweet thing. Whatever. X(
I can't detail it much today. Cuase my head is eaten up by my own system and I can't handle it as of now. I hoped this day for a happy one. But it turned out to be a shiitttty and emo day. Well, I'm partly happy cause I hang out with my barkada and we had a blast and we're happy together. Though, after Louisa leaves, things will definitely change. :[
The damage has been done. I am effed up. I am hurt. I am sick. I acan't handle this.
I was very trusting. I have experienced this before, but what was I thinking? Thought I will never let this happen again. Thought it was all over! I am so stupid to think that way. I am now a horrible creep and now, I'm suffering from hurt. I can't be like this forever. I can't be like this.
One moment you're happy, the other you're sad. :(
I shouldn't have let this happen to myself. I am such a fool. I am soo wrong. I wonder. :[ I'll just detail it later. When my mind is clearer. :| Not now. Not like this. Not this time. Not when I'm still terribly hurt. So wrong.
HAPPY TWENTY FOUR!
Date / Time : Saturday, May 24, 2008 / 5:18 AM
Hello! :D It's a HAPPY 24 baby! ;]
I'll be meeting up with my friends later. But now, I'll update before I leave. Well, this might be a blast or a sure bore if my friends doesn't show up. I guess they would naman. Whatever. Anyway, it's a 24. I must be happy! haha! Like there's no other choice right? :]] haha! Kk. I need to be in a very good mood today. No one is allowed to ruin it. Unless I would. :]] haha!! Whatever. I need to get dressed. Our appointment is 10am. It's like 930am on my clock. Whatever. Gawwwd. Puro whatever haha!
KK.BYE!!
STUPID
Date / Time : Friday, May 23, 2008 / 9:20 PM
I know this is stupid. And I know the meaning of this. but where the hell HIATUS came from? Could someone explain that to me. Effed. :]]
TWENTYFOUR
Date / Time : / 7:57 PM
twelve am. it's 24 already and okayy. I'm happy! BIGTIME. I feel such bliss && Joy && I don't need to detail it. :]]
--First, I updated the links. Well, I have deleted them cos obviously, they have deleted their blogs. So what's the point on linking them? haha. But if you want a link exchange, just give me a holla Through my tagboard. Anyway, I'm also bloghopping. visited some blogs. ;] Yay. -- I'll be going out. again. yea. haha! I have an appointment with my barkada. A whole day LAST TIME, BIG TIME. Cos Louisa will be staying here in Phils. for just a week. and yea. We need to hang out. Plus it's a HAPPY TWO MONTHS to us babe! Way to go. haha! I know the relationship is quite fresh. Yayy. :] haha! And yea. Hang on tight. Cos we have a looooooong (and endless road) to travel. yea. Whatever. :]]
Okayyy.. So I wanna write about something insightful. But I'm actually braindead. Whatever.
Filipinos are quite judge mental sometimes. I don't know. But I was like talking to my bestfriend the other day, and we both agreed on that. :]] Admit it. We even become racist with the similar race and that becomes discrimination. It actually is. And nobody notices. or shall I say, no one even bothered to care about the growing hatred between us people. :| i don't know. Well, don't hate me for this && don't get me wrong. I'm just trying to keep it real. And yea. Whatever. Don't get mad people. I am just trying to speak my mind. Whatever.
I hate to get brain dead in the middle of something like this. Guess i'm brain dead. Distorted veins. Whatsoever.
I am currently thinking of something else to say. But this is baaaaaaaaad. i guess The brain I had ate itself. Whatever. I'm a loser this time. Fcckkk.
Inspiration, I need you..
No wait. I need to be inspired. It's a twenty-four SHiiiT. :| I don't wanna get into a low mood now. But it's starting. Depressed of not having my Adobe Photoshop back. I bet kuya's trying to pul something of. Naaah. kidding. ;] But seriously, I NEED my Adobe back. or else. I'll be looking for a skin on blogskins forever. Not that it's the only thing or whatsoever. Plus advertising too! ME WANT. :]] Nananananana!! :]] I'll keepyah posted guys if you even try to take a visit. :| No one does frequently anyways. Nyaha! ciaooo!
LEAVING
Date / Time : / 3:53 PM
LEAVING
My bessy Louisa is leaving for Canada in a week. And it weakens me just the thought of it. :| It's sickening. I don't wanna think about it, but it constantly (and automatically) plays back somewhere on my mind and I end up thinking about it all day. Fuckk. :| I hate the thought. I am very SAD. A part of me is like OMFFFFFG, I can't do this. I feel like breaking down. I feel like I'm dying. Don't tell me this is soo emo, and that I struggle and that I don't handle stuffs likely. But Fuckkk the thought. I can't. I can't accept the fact that she is leaving. And would be likely, miles apart from me. It sucks. BIGTIME. X[
My Baybest Gert will be leaving next year for New Zealand. I don't wanna deal with this right now. But soon I would be. Gert has been my Bestfriend for TEN YEARS now. Although we lived separate lives and hasn't been together physically, By heart.. I know and she does too, That were still what we are. Since second grade. I can't really accept that she'll be miles away. and that it wont be as easy as ONE-CALL-AND-HELLO-YOU'RE-ON-THE-PHONE.. It's not like that. It will be much more different. It will be hard. Harder than marikina-pasig HARRRRD. Forever hard. I can't do this.
TWO BESTFRIENDS IN TWO YEARS, WILL BE LEAVING.
That's just SAD and fuckin' HARD to deal with babe. TOO HARD. X(
NEW NEW NEW !!!!
Date / Time : / 3:08 PM
New layout for me!! Yay!! It's simple, but I love the colors.
Okay. I don't feel like eating dinner. Cos I still have the load of Mcdonald's Cheese Burger. and the greasy fries and the coke. :| I would just rather eat soup. I am very much amazed cos I bet kuya is still ecstatic and still on his HAPPY mood. So I'm taking advantage of the computer. I would love to have a NEW LAPTOP or a new PC in my room. But Mom's being practical. If she buys me, I would use it 24/7 and electricity would rise up! Fuck it. :| But yeah. I think my laptop would be coming soon. :] or NOT. :| -- Have you ever felt like you're worrying about the unknown? I mean, You're worrying wbout things you don't know. like you're just worrying all the time. Without sense. Without bearings. Without enough thoughts. I don't know why I'm actually feeling that. I don't know why the heck. I am just worried about nothing. I'll shrug it off later. In a bit, I'll be okay. Or not. Or maybe yes. After all, I'll be better. Better off not worrying. I'm wishing of a vacation. But I know it's impossible at the moment. I lack TIME. I freakin' hate it! I need to atleast visit Batangas. My half siblings and Yea, stepmom and My Dad. I need to atleast see them before school starts. Worried about not seeing them. and ofcourse, Not having a decent vacation. I wanna stay at the beach. But the weather won't let me. :| I hate the rain if I crave for the sand. :| I love playing on the sand, though it depends on my mood. :]] Haha!
I am still nervous about the first day of classes. Since, I'll be a freshman in MC this year. Fuckk the feeling I'm feeling. :| rarrr. -- Everything seems to be new. everything seems to be foreign. Why is that? Why does that supposed to happen? I feel alienated. :|
I wrote your name on my palm.
Date / Time : / 2:07 PM
HAHA! the title dude. It is stupid. :]] haha!!
I don't know what I wanna write about today. Guess I'm brain dead again or something. I can't think of anything interesting to write about. Cos yea, I don't know. I'm currently looking for a new layout i'd like to use. :] Hmm. Bligskins is very much helpful, since I am soo lazy to make a layout myself. Plus the struggle in coding and all. Whatever. I'm busy. My sorry ass can't make a decent enough layout for myself. Even just decent. :| I know right? I'm very busy. Can't handle myself anymore. I'm looking for a LOUD skin. But I think I'll stick to the simple one I saw a while ago. I am not really the simple kid. I'm the loud one. But then, I'm THAT lazy. I can't seem to find a better skin that fits me THAT well. Hope you understand what I'm trying to say. Wish I could just make a skin for myself. Not that I am good. I in fact need some help. I wonder. Imma fix my lay. Laterrrrs.
STRUGGLE.
Date / Time : / 1:43 PM
Okayyyyyyyyy. The struggle stuff about to begin. :| rarrr.
Okay. So morning, kinuha namin ni kuya yung NSO copy of birth certificate stuff. Then, after lunch about mga 2pm, pumunta na kami sa MC. Tas nakasakay kami ng cab after 30minutes. Sorry kasi kuya didn't also know how to ride the jeep from here to MC. So we just took a cab like we always do. then, we just passed some requirements and bought a set of my college uniform. yea. Then it rained HARRRRRRRRRRRD. and were like stranded for hours with 2 skanks. Sorry for the description. I knowww. I am soo mean(sometimes). There. I was sooo hungry. No wait. I was starving. And I wanna cry my ass out. But then, we waited TOOO LOOOOOOOOONG. Or soo. whatever. the guard called a taxi and after I think 20mins we hit Mcdo. We ate merienda. Syempre, nagpa-cheeseburger si kuya. Natuwa naman ako sakanya. -- Thanks na rin kasi nagkaroon kami ni kuya ng bonding time. Although struggle talaga sa paguwi. :]] haha! Good thing we were both in good moods. And that's kinda strange and off and yea, unbelievable I must say. there. Pero masaya kami. :]] Ang saya nga eh. Kahit sobrang nagstruggle kami at nastarved out sa waiting shed ng MC for an hour. Pero like I said, masaya naman sya. If it wasn't for the rain, hindi kami nakapagbond ni kuya. Well, ang mocker din ng kuya ko. Nagmock kami behind some people's back. haha! Soooobrang sama. Well, those people deserved it. :]]]]]]] SORRRRRRYYY! :]] Blame us. no. Blame it to the weather. It's not our felt we got bored or soooooo... Ang mean lang naman namin. But that's just occasionally. Like I said, the weather made us do so! Arrgh. I'll post some shots we took a while ago cos the weather made us do sooo. :]]] 8-| haha! SORRRRRYY. bye!
College Girl on The Loose.
Date / Time : Thursday, May 22, 2008 / 5:58 PM
PETRIFIED.
I am strangely petrified about this college thing. Whatever happened to the ever so comfortable && confident Thea. :| Shheeesh. :|:|:| I have never felt nervous like this before. It's a different kind of feeling. When I first went to school, that was preschool days and I don't know anything about being left out or whatever. Since I haven't been kinda left out all my life for the past 17 years. :] Then Grade1. I was a new student in St.Paul but yea, half the class is. So I didn't even bother to worry about it. Then, as I transferred schools. I have become the center of attention (not to brag) Ive got loads of friends and Im no loser to be. I have my playmates around school so I have company. yea. highschool begun, and I'm much more at home with the school. I gained more friends everyday. Different batches or so. And now, I'll be a college girl. I don't know what it's like to be one. How things work. How's system? How's friendship? How to deal. I DON'T HAVE A FUCKKKKIN IDEA. And I am very nervous. School year 2008 is about to open in what? Like 2 weeks from now. I don't have friends. Stranger is what I am to the eyes of the people err student in MC. and I feel very weird. How do you deal with this? How would I be gaining friends? Will I be silent? Quiet? Loud? OMFFFFFG. This is the first time I'd be dealing with this stuff. And I pray to dear God to Bless me more over and power to handle such! I'm goin' nuts about the fact that I DON'T HAVE FRIENDS there. It will be very much DIFFERENT from highschool. Or not. I still am clueless. Don't have any idea. I don't freakiiiiiiin know. I hate this feeling. Whatever. I'm SCARED. Okay. Imma admit it just this once. I'm VERY VERY MUCH SCARED. I can't do this. OMFG. OMFGGGGGG!! :|:|:| Yay. :| TOUGH GUY. I need to be a tough ass guy. :| Sheesh. I'll gain them. :]] Please dear lord. HELP ME. puhlease! :[
Whateverrrrrrr.
Date / Time : / 5:46 PM
Whatever. I agot so emo last night. Forgive me for that, less drama factors are coming. Idk where the fuckk my brain got the idea to tell my cutting history. Whatever.
Yay. Today, I went to the doctor's for my X-ray thing. The nurse just instructed me to go down the hall. I approached the guy there for confirmation and he was like Okay, there's a gown there. Remove your jacket, shirt && bra. And I was like OHHHHMMMMYYYYGGGGAAAAAWD. NO. Hell no! I would never do that with a guy snapping off my xray. But I have no choice. He left me for a moment and there. I was like very much NERVOUS. You see, I feel awkward. Fuckkk the feeling. Anyhoo, yea. The guy or nurse guy never came close naman. He just instructed me with the things I needed to know in particular. Thank God! I was such a creepy person to deal with. Haha!! Ang paranoid ko kasi. :]] Haha! Gawsssh.
So there. besides that, I did nothing. Bumming around it is. :]] hell I'll be busy in the next days or even just before classes starts. I'm petrified. I'll post later. :]
EMO--have you ever tried to cut yourself
Date / Time : Wednesday, May 21, 2008 / 9:57 PM
The title, It just plays back on my mind. I don't really know why is that but, Yea. :| I feel sick. My tummy aches. I feel like imma vomit any moment. arrrrgh. I just wanna sleep. I wanna get a knife and stab myself to death just to ease the fuckin tummy ache. Oh good lord. I freaking hate this feeling. I'm nauseous. :[
Okay. Have you ever felt some kinda pain you just wanna get away with it the instant you realize how much it hurts the shiit out of you and all you wanna do is find a way to escape the pain. (i am not pertaining to the tummy ache i'm feeling now). Well anyway, yea. The feeling. the pain. You just wanna ease it right away. But then, someone in your head tries to scream at you and playbacks for the last seconds ticking forever on that moment of your life. :| Then flashbacks starts running through your head. It starts to play like a slow mo film and then you start feeling nostalgic and you may wanna smile but then the PAIN just returns and begins to be much much more intense? Have you ever felt that way? And then.. Regrets starts pouring now. It crashes into your soul makes you wanna cry your own tears.. It hardens your heart and you feel so hard to breathe in. HEEHOOHEEHOO. It's crazy. You wanna cry even more. you wanna scream.. but silence has wrapped you. you may look calm. but inside, you wanna just cut your wrist and die now. Have you ever felt that way before?
If you might wanna ask me........
I have felt it. And for real, I cut myself, it's not really CUT it CUT it. It's.. I wanna loose things. It's getting a lot depressing and I can't find the air I wanna breathe. So I took hold of the cutter and cut a part of my wrist, the skin welled off blood rushing from the cut. It wasn't a big cut, though I tried it. It's soo lame, But surprisingly, It helped a lot. I got to breathe better and I felt light. I felt delighted by it and felt non stricken by the pain. It's disgusting though, but it reassured me of a better and light feeling. It wasn't my intention to kill myself, I just wanna feel satisfied and I wanna escape from the pain my heart has experienced at the moment. :| It was the very feeling I wanna feel right then and there. DONE THAT. I was like, OKAYYY, I'm not going to do that again. You might think it's stupid and all, you might think it's lame and it's the last thing you would wanna do--hurt yourself, But believe me, You don't understand. You just don't know how it feels when you feel soo down and noone tries to understand. :| It sucks bigtime. Yeah. LOSERRR. To those who thinks, being LIKE THAT (what I did a long time ago before) is STUPID and LAME and FREAKISH. You don't freaking know how much it hurts when noone understands. When noone seems to be listening and you are soo much wasted literally, neglected and taken for granted. And the outlet is to just hurt yourself, The point is, You have let others hurt you much, and what a relief it is when You did it to yourself thinking it's much better this way. It's been a long time ago since I last did that. --People, You don't know every piece of shiit going on inside my circle. it's been a whole lot messy && crappy. Though things are better now. And finally, I'm not depressed and I feel the sunshine coming right up again. I am soo thankful to the people who has been there through thick && thin who TRIED to understand me, pulled me away from the deepest darkest shadows of life and helped my handle things.
GOD--Thank you. kasi you made me see stuffs I hadn't noticed. And I almost forgot that I still have you. MOM--For being there emotionally. For always having my back. For the love && You know it. BROTHERS--My 3 kuyas. For being such assholes but truly engaged to me. For being there when noone seems to be there. For suking up bigtime. :]] FRIENDS--My bestfriend GERT The TEN YEARS of friendship is as great as life could offer. Greatest friendship ever in the whole world. You know why I'm thanking you. PAM && TISH my beloved confidantes.. Ones who never get tired of listening.. SWEETS BERKEIDA You all know who you are. You've been there through a lot of MY bad times and you never left my side, I often tried to be happy around you guys and yet you still know how broken am I. thanks for knowing me too well and keeping it real for me. I love you guys! for all my FRIENDS I don't need to mention cos Ive got lots of you. And I know, You know who you are, so Imma just say THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. thanks you for being there. :] to my BABY LoVVVE Babe, Thank you for the happiness, It has just been 2months of pure love,tears && happiness with you, but I know we'll go far beyond babe. I know I love you. And I will always do. I won't say forever cos the future keeps on turning but as long as we love each other, I would definitely give all my love. thank you for understanding my moodswings my freakish ways and undeniably horrible PMS. Sorry babe. I love you. ;]
To those who HATE the shiit out of me. Thank you for making me realize, I'm worth wasting your time. You see how fool you can get? Thank you for hating me all your life. It's been forever since some started hating me. It's for a reason I don't know. Some insecure bitches just can't get enough of me. Well, whatever bitches. I am soo happy. :] Get a life. and Just live it happily. Stop hating. You'll be hated much more. :]] LOL.
This has been the very decent &7& serious post since last ages ago. :]] haha! Comment please. ;]
Updating again.
Date / Time : / 8:28 PM
Yea. I'm just bored and it's past midnight, still hadn't slept well. My rants about today.
I'm having a hormonal thingy and it feels like I'm going to have na. I woke up quite early. like 8am I think. I called MC and asked if I could just pass my requirements on or before friday. just not today. So there. I had an early lunch, about 10am. And slept again. Woke up 2pm and called the dentist and went there. Finished dentist 5pm and went straight to Mylene's get together party cos it's her birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MYLENE! --we had a blast though it wasn't really the BLAST, blast thing we usually have. Well then, I went home 9pm and just wondered why I hadn't ate dinner. Whatever. I'm hungry. So now, I made a sandwich. It's yummy Nutella, gardenia && good banana it's a nice sandwich. Just invented it! Loved it. I call it CHOCO BANANA LOCO sandwich haha! :]]
Anyway, I feel really sick about things lately. College requirements really suck bigtime and Yes. It's not very easy as you all thought. And please, could somebody just instruct me to like, uhm. COMMUTE. I really can't. From here to MC. Bitccchhh!!! :|:|:|:|:|
Soo There, what else? I'm really bored and I just thought of blogging and blog hopping and all. I don't do this very often nowadays cos I'm too lazy to do so, and in fact, I haven't been using the PC like before, cos yea. My brother is very addicted. He just finished his studies and not working yet and a bum. :]] haha!!
I'll go now. Bye.
UPDATING
Date / Time : Tuesday, May 20, 2008 / 11:23 AM
Screw the bitches who can't get enough of me.
anyway, I'm updating again. And yesss. I'm bored. I don't know what to do with my left free days. Just so ironic, cos I'm planning things on my mind. Hayy. I'm worried I can't get through the first day of college. :T i'm scared mann. So there, I still haven't gone sa Batangas. I'm soo busy about college life and stuffs and requirements for college and all. Gawd. :| I can't get a free life. :| arrrrrrgh. Anway, I can't think of anything interesting to say. I'm again, Brain dead. :| Cannnnn't. :( I feel sickkk though.
Watched 5 movies in just 2 weeks. Man, Now I'm broke. :| sheesh. :|
FRIENDS COME OVERRRR.
Date / Time : Monday, May 12, 2008 / 8:20 AM
yeyyy!! My friends will come over a little later. I'm soo excited to see themmmmm!!! Yeyyy!! I love to see them, to hang out with them. Who doesn't? haha!! Anyway, I'm still soo addicted with ALWAYS BE MY BABY. :]]]]]] Sorry naman diba. Pero sooobrang nakakainlove sya jan. Haha! Yeaaaa! Sorry kung ang kulit ko lang. hahaha!! Anyhoo, My friends would be hanging out here, for the first time, they would see our new house. Gusssh. haha! :] Excited ako. kaso hindi buo yung barkada namin.. hayyyy.. :[ Anyhoo, sorry for the lame post. Kasuka eh. :]]]]]]] bye!
DAVID COOK'S ALWAYS BE MY BABY IS LOOOOOOOOOO♥VE
Date / Time : Sunday, May 11, 2008 / 3:24 PM
--Yea. I knowwww. I'm sooo damn inlove with the song he performed. yea. It's soo late to write about it just now. But the realization of this writing thing must I say, "inspiration" for the aspect is.. yea. hahah!! Someone. Someone special. :] The song is not likely BAGAY for us, but it reminds me of him, cos We call each other baby. Yea. :] I love the sooooooooong soo much! :] Anyway, am I gonna be sued for this? haha! Anyhoo, It's so foolish of me to call MC a while ago, thinking it was a usual weekday. It is SUNDAYYY today. Gaaahd. i'm soo stupid. hahah!! :]] Well, I will buy some Meg cabot books next week. I just thought I should. It's worth the "buy" diba? hahah! But I need to ask kuya if I should or if he would let me spend money just for the sake of buying my precious books. :\ I am a born book worm and I love reading soooo much. ;] yea. I just gotta go, Supper will be served in five minutes. I gotta get dressed properly. Cause you see, We need not wear just some sort of "pambahay" clothes during dinner. I don't freakin know why the heck? But I guess we need to do it. And still. I'm deeply bothered by that. WHY? Are we that Aristocratic? hahaha!! Fuck. Imma laugh my ass off. It's shiiiiit. I swearrrrrrrr. need to run now. I'll update if I could.
I would. ;]Ciao for now. ;]
BRAIN DEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAD. AKO.
Date / Time : Saturday, May 10, 2008 / 7:55 PM
I am currently brain dead. Not like brain dead, brain dead. I think I'm brain dead when I mean I have nothing really interesting to write about or talk about or just snap. :| Noticeable, I have nothing really GOOD to talk about. Cos Imma pass out anytime. I'm sleepy. But Still, I wanna blog about things. Since, My day was nothing but a boring fagot day, I just sleaze. :]]]]]]]] haha! I'm bored to think of stories about my dayyyy. My blogging thing gets a little bit lame than usual. And I can't see anything insightful with this. :| okayy. Soo sige. -- I'm bored, and I have been reading another novel ROOMMATES. And I'm down to the last half of the book. It is a hilarious and funny book man. I say, It's worth the 200php I spent. It's soo funny that I giggle sometimes while reading silently. Like a lunatic something like that. Well, I'm just bored. But I soo love reading. Still have 2o+ books unread, and that's a great boredom ease. Yay! Imma call MC tomorrow about the reservation stuff. And to schedule the medical things also. Plus so that I could enroll na. Though May22 is the said date for enrollment. -- Speaking of MC. Nasabaw ako sa MIRCAT math part. I was sooo lazy to read the questions and soooooooooo sleepy. I just slept the next hours of the test after answering the 1st one. :]] haha! And that's why good grief is on for me! I am very much thankful that I passed the test (sleeping while the exams are on going is no better, I must sayyy) though I have to take some Extra subject like I mean, MATH. I don't really know why. Haha! Kunyare clueless. Haha!! Alryt. That's just it for now. Cos Imma sleep already. ;]
COMMUTING STRUGGGGGGLE!!!!!!!!!!!! :[
Date / Time : / 10:11 AM
I am bored as of the moment. I am still lazy to get requirements for College. Tss. I need to get a slot in MC and I still am lazzzzzzzy. My lazy bones are just getting lazier than ever. Tss. I don't know how kase to pay by myself. Lamu yung pupunta ko magisa dun. I am sooo not ready for this things YET. pero diba. hellllllooooooooooooo naman kasi. Hindi pa ko sanay sa mga ganyan ganyan. I was soo dependent pagdating sa mga bagay na ito. Sooobra. Hindi ko kaya magpunta pa dun magisa like magask ng kung anu anu sa guard jan. I am not used to this. soo yun ang pinoproblema ko talaga! I have the money in hand. But then, I can't go there If you want me to ride a jeepney, cos with that, I might die! Hindi sa nagiinarte ko. Kasi, hindi ko alam kung san ako baba, kung pwede kasi na lagi nalang akong magtaxi diba. Bakit kasi may coding coding pa ang kotse dito. Eh di sana tapos agad problema ko! Hindi ko kaya pumunta magisa sa MC na magcocommute ako. Dahil mamamatay lang ako ng dilat! Hindi talaga ko maarte pagdating sa mga sasakyan, kasi nakasakay na rin naman ako ng jeep for about 5times na. Diba? So kaya ko yun. at nakasakay na rin naman ako ng tricycle. Lagi lagi. Pero, hindi ko kayang magcommute papunta sa MC!!! Baka mawala ako. Sus. Hindi ko kaya magisa! Buti kung may kasama ko, mawala kami pareho ayos lang. Eh kung magisa ko, magfreak out pa ko!! At laging iiral ang paranoia sakin. May mga what ifs pa kong nalalaman jan. Nako. Hindi ko kaya!! swearrrr. Kaya ko magcommute kung fx papuntang megamall or galle. or cab papuntang shang. pero yung magshishift pa ko from jeep to tricycle to jeep and jeep again then tricycle, aba mamatay ako nun! Lalo na pag first time. Hindi ko talaga kaya yun!! nakooooo!!! :[ Panu kaya yun? :[[[ I need help. Seriously. :|:|:|
If ever you read this, and you have a very good and wonderful soul. Please kindly help me. Im stuggling big time! :|
OKAYYY.
Date / Time : Friday, May 09, 2008 / 7:56 PM
Sorry for being like yea. SOOOOO random a while ago. I was just not myself or shall I say my SELF haha! :] Anyway, I was thinking of something interesting to write about but then, my mind is on the state of something random and has the tendency to just drool. And mind you, I'm unfathomably mumbling the words right out on my brain but nothing really comes out. I don't really know what I mean. But you see, I'm on danger zone. :]]]]]]] shiit. This whole thinking thing got me nuts forever. :]] What now? Well, I'm trying my very best just to write something here. Kase soobrang hindi ako makapagcomputer for tha past days or mind myself, weeks. Kuya glued himself sa pc so ako, forever at kinarir ko na din umalis ng bahay every other day. And so you see why I'm trying to put some effort on this blog entryyyy! Get it? Anywayyyy, I'm actually happy(or not...) with the DSl thing mom planned to put up on the PC so me and my brother need not kill each other for internet. But for some reasons.. and LAMEST reasons forever, I might not really enjoy this. Cos kuya kept on gluing himself on the PC and I can't just get my hands on this precious little thing. :|:|:| Sooo.. For the past days, I'll just rant it all out since I have nothing really to write about. or something special here..
-- I lost track of dates and yea, days.. Since I go out almost everyday. It's not the usual me to hang out forever, but I'm sick here at home. It's not that the company isn't great here. But I miss my friends and old neighbors a lot. So I quite spend a lot of money just to visit my old neighbors at our old place. Cos yea, we moved roooight. :] :| Ive been watching movies in movie theaters which is not likely but once Ive been grabbed by my buddies, I give in. And Ive been hooked on watching league bball games at our old place. It gives me the earthly senses of being a child. Not likely here on our new neighborhood. People expects you to be very matured and sophisticated. whatever. It's pain in the ass for some reasons. And I can't explain myself fully at all, since I am not kinda sure on what I feel. I feel sickly word vomitting for the past 5mins of typing. :| and yet, I haven't been very insightful as what writing can possibly be concerned at. :|
-- Okayy so let me mumble about recent stuffs. Like yesterday. I was practically and usually bored than ever. and all I can think of was going out. It was a little lame cos I felt very tired even though I haven't lifted any fingers for some chores (which will never gonna happen now. Cos I wont be doing chores. ;]) So it was 4pm then when I took a bath. Then I needed to go out and hang out some other place here in pasig. So after taking a bath, I went out and told my brother I would be home by seven. So he let me go out. It was raining. but not that hard as what you would imagine when you get to read this. I just though it was harder than just ambon itself. So I went back inside and asked ate where my hoodies are. I definitely need not bring umbrella to my destination. I have my backpack with me anyways. It's a colorful one, One you would eye on the crowd. So it helps me when people needs to go meet me. Haha! Anyway, there, I can't seem to find my hoodies, sweats and all kind of rainy clothes. So I opened the cabinet and saw a tagged hoodie. It was still not worn by me. haha! And I have no choice, I gotta go. So I just stripped off the tag and then wooosh! Went put again. Rode a tricycle, and the manong has no trapal :| I just hope to get there soon. Haha! Then I eyed mico when I got there and we hang out for sometime. It was 650pm when I decided to bid goodbyes and off I go. Went home just in time for dinner. and realized I wasted a hundred pesos just to hang out for some hours outside. Guess it makes me happy. ;] There. Imma blog hop. Tired of typing.
ciao. Just holla @ me you guys if you want something. But if you want me to SHUDDUP, well, that's just not gonna happen dearieee. :] >bye<
YEY!! :]]]] HAPPPPPPPPPPPY. I SWEARRRR.
Date / Time : / 2:53 PM
I am Happy, cos Yea, I passed MIRCAT. ;] Yey. So Imma study in Miriam College this year. But I still don't know if Imma transfer to some other universities, But I think, MC has a good quality education also. Anyway, Ive been very busy lately. I often go out with friends, hang out more than usual and Yea, talk tooooooo much. Anyway, I finished reading the novel A Window To the World It was very touching. The story seems to tell much of bestfriend feelings. I don't know what I'm talking about, but in fact, I finaly realized lots of things I haven't been thinking about of much. Anyway, I can't seem to find the perfect words for some stuffs, and I almost vomit words undeniably incorrect in times... Haha! I gotta watch my words before it comes out and hurt somebody. Yea. I know this post gets to be very random than usual, but I am merely fascinated on how I deal with stuffs lately. ACKKKKKKK. This is soooo random!!! :|:|:|
-- Okay. So, I wanna be more organized and more insightful than what I am right now. Some bits of myself just wanna be matured. NOW. as in like ZAAAAP./ and viola! I am matured! :]] haha! Hey. Imma update this later, when I'm not THAT random anymore. :] Okayyy. Bye!
