oh gosh. im HOME. :) yeah. haha. :)) i missed everyone much much. :)) anyhoo, things are not really easy going right now, but im trying to manage it. everyday will always be a new day and a new life. YUCK. :)) am i on the drama loose again??? :| haha! oh shoot. soo there.. i can't stand having the drama boo-hoo-hoo stage. oh well, crazy life. :))
i don't wanna talk about what happened today.. maybe you can guess. it's not a good day after all. :)) oh well.
there's nothing really interesting to blog about today (like my blog is interesting eh noh?!!) =)) but still, i just wanna blog. is that convincing now?? im bored. :|

like what else could i possibly say? OH! SENIOR year is fast approaching!! oh gosh. i can't believe it. im oredi a SENIOR?!! oh shocks. hard work and a lot of determination for me will be needed..!! oh gehd. soree for the non sense posts. i will be leaving now. haha! keep yah posted!!!

cia0 <3

another day has passed. :)) it was more likely another boring day but i didn't notice. : we're soo busy doing nothing. :) great! :)) how cool is that?! :)) : anyhoo, were still doing nothing, yet i can't post this yet. (im using notepad).. thanks to the ever loving and loyal NOTEPAD. :D
i love it.
anyway, i feel soo FAT! : am i having a disorder? half bulimic and half anorexic. oh shocks! :)) i can't have eating disorders. :)) hah. :
tomorrow (may23) we planned to have a DVD marathon. why we didn't do it today? cos were busy doing nothing. :)) =)) : soree naman. :
im gonna have an interesting and long post today cos im fishing out COMMENTS.. ;) yih. parinig. :)) anyway, what can i possibly say. : uhm.. any topic??

BOYS!! :) well, it's not like what you think it is. im not a boy gaga or freak. :) im just gonna post something interesting about the topic. :)

BOYS=your pesky brother, classroom crush, dad, classmate, boy bud.. or anyone who brings special problems, headache or heartache. the one who gives you CONFUSION CRISES. ;) : =))

let's start with the *PESKY LITTLE BROTHER*
^^dilemma^^: he's just annoying and totally embarasses you in front of your friends. He's always getting you in trouble with your parents and you just can't get him to stay out of your bussiness or your bedroom (for instance).. even when you have your friends over. :)) :
+++here's the deal. i don't have any pesky little brother. but i sure have a PESKY lil SISTER. snf she's like that?! do you have one. let's share. :)

*BOY BUDDY*
^^dilemma^^:everyone thinks you like him and teases you having a boyfriend but you tw are just good pals yet, noone believes you. :))
+++haha! im experiencing that as for the moment. and it's like super HARD. : it's also irritating. : can't you see the whole point?!! were just friends. ^^OH STOP IT. and that really sound SHOWBIZy! :)) :)) :))

*YOUR CRUSH*
^^dilemma^^:does he like you back?! OMFG. haha! does he even know you exist?! you're too scared to admit you have a crush on that cute boy at school. but you can't stop daydreaming about him. and being nervous around him! :))
+++oh my frwaksho0w!! i can't imagine. :) oh gehd. my crush?!! how can i let him know if he's GORDO from lizzie mcguire. :)) nyahaha!! :)) :)) loveit.

*YOUR DAD*
^^dilemma^^:he's either too strict or too embarrassing or BOTH! he just never seems to understand you. and he has way too many rules for you to worry about. why can't he just let you have fun?!
+++dayym! papeeto! ;) i just love my poppah!! idk if he's too strict or embarrassing. maybe BOTH. :)) nyhahhaha!!! :) oh dear angel. i really love papeeto much much. :D

*GUY CLASSMATES*
^^dilemma^^:they do nothing but tease you or embarrass you and even when you try to be nice they act soo immature! are boys naturally dumb and annoying?! (joking). don't get mad. get personal, like you, boys will do anything to be cool or popular. unfortunately, sometimes that means amusing their friends by making fun of you or acting like total meanies.
+++my classmates. are freaks! hell. but they are all caring and fun to be with. though they can't recognize your boundaries.. well, it's okay. men are from mars. that's why. :)

***with the help of total girl***

if you have anything to share just comment. :) take care. :D

>>today.
here's the song ive been singing since the break up. do you think it suites me?? or the situation? im thankful for my friends. :) they're just there whenever you need them. well, some of them. :)


Total Eclipse Of The Heart
Turn around
Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never comin' around
Turn around
Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears
Turn around
Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by
Turn around
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes
Turn around bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart


Turn around
Every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something right
Turn around
Every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms
Turn around
Every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry
Turn around bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart


And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
'Cause we'll never be wrong together
Once upon a time I was falling in love
Now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
Now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say, a total a eclipse of the heart


Turn around bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
'Cause we'll never be wrong


Together we can take it to the end of the line
'Cause love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Once upon a time I was falling in love
Now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say, a total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
Turn around bright eyes
Turn around bright eyes
Turn around


-Bonnie Tyler

okaii. soo there. now im over HIM. :)) haha! it's funny that i finished grieving. im not really fully recovered,though im done with the cryings and stuff like that.. but i can't deny the fact that im still having the FLASHBACKS. gawd. :|
okaii. stop the drama. :|
anyway, what can i say? nonsense stuff.. there's nothing more effectively interesting to say anymore. though, i still wanna make kwento. :|

uhm. todaii was a "not-do-boring-day"..
uhm. im speechless. soree naman. i have nothing more better to say eeh. :)) uh.. and now, im BORED. and this entry is getting over BORING. everly boring.
soo there. i lost weight. at about a half. but then again, i gained what a lost! :)) haha. i hate it though. :| :)) i hate being FAT. what i really mean was im NOT really fat. BUT i'am FAT. LABO!!! :)) well, it's not normal.. im THIN before. and now, IM NOT. :| oh wait, im not really THAT concious.. :|but i know, i SOUND like one. :| argh.. i hate this. :|
im bored kasi. that's why. okaii. imma keep ya'll posted. :D

comment my previos post. :D
cia0<3

okaii. so im here at my baybest's house. were bored. and we decided to surf the net.. we camwhored all day and everytime. :)) hehe. there are lots of new pictures in MY MULTIPLY . lalang. :) i had a haircut. ;) it's pretty much over NEW. ;))
anyway, here's a shot of my new look. :)) it's super funny. :)) i look like a FREAK!! :)) nyaharhar. :|




i know it's pretty "emoish".. :)) but it's cute*slash*freaky.. :)) lalang. comment nyo nalang. :) i want opinions. though i don't really need it NEED it. gets?, cos i can't change it anymore. DUH!!? haha!! pucha. :)) soo there..
go check out my multiply for more photos. :)) actually, my bestfriend and i are having an alldaylong*slash*weeklong photoshoot.. vain as ever. :
anyhoo..

imma visit YOU (whoever you are reading this).. soo just tag and i'll get back to you as soon as i can. :)
o........kay.......

take care. byes. :))
i'll keep ya'll posted!! :D

cia0<3

im not falling apart anymore.. im soo proud of myself. i have not actually moved on like i was oredi fully recovered.. but definitely, moving on. and never going back., :) ive learned my lessons and it's a nice experience. even if it hurt me a lot. i mean, come on., even if there are soo many frggin difficult times, i realized that i also had a nice experience when it comes with the "MATTER"..
it's not my thing like GIVING UP ON SOMEONE. i know, i did my part. i fought for the THREE years. :)) hehe.
ohkayy. stop it. :))

today will gonna be an extremely stressing day. quite a blue day for me. mom will be going to work again after a month long vacation..
and i.. i will be gone for a week. i'll be going with gert. having a weeklong vacation. :) aww. love it. btw, i dyed my hair. having hot red pink streaks. :)) haha. some portion of my hair. oh. i mean the bottom portion of my hair. :) in the neck part. :)) i love it. and oh! just soo i thought that im planning for a constant change, im having a haircut! :) ;) brilliant. :D teehee.,
i'll post the pics in multiply. for sure, i'll be having a brigade of photos. :) please comment! :D

^^&&enough of the heartbreaks&&^^

cia0!<3

it's not like im not okay, OKAY. but i feel neglected and very sad. :| oh well. life must go on for me. and having stucked with him for 3years.. it's been very memorable. and i find it hard to forget everything.. it's really never easy to let go. imagine THREE YEARS it will never be easy for me. oh well. but i must not take it all the way. the burden. and the damage has been made. there's no regrets and turning back now.. im not sure if i can find somebody like him. but one thing's for sure.. i will never fall inlove the same. never. i mean, i don't want to be like this. to feel such depressions.. oh well. i learned my lessons. :) and i may wanna stop feeling like shit now. :) everyday will be a brand new day. :) and it will be better. :) oh gawshh... :|
anyhoo, ive been thinking lately what really happened. it was such a blast that i left every memory on the deepest corner of my heart. and there it is.. im done with it.
soo far, im still on the healing stage. . maybe there are further reasons why i have to be on this burden... anyway, im still glad that i experienced such. like the happiness of bein in LOVE. :)
i need to cope up with myself now.. i gotta stop being supressed.. and depressed. haaayyy.
oh well. that's life. :D
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im all brand new!! :) single ans still healing. :) finally, i learned how to accept things.. this may not the thought that i wanted, but maybe.. the healing process will take over.. comment me if you want. :) :P and now, im not BUSY anymore. you guys take care.. sorry for not visiting you in such a while. :|

keep yah posted! :D

cia0! <3